[It almost...doesn't seem fair, in a way. Not in the sense that Yomotsu thinks he's being treated unfairly, but...how is it that he can make Taiki this happy so easily...? He can't help but think that- the thought keeps coming back...just because of the way he'd been acting, but...That really is just what makes Taiki...Taiki, isn't it? Being able to smile and stay happy no matter what's going on around him...and then brighten up even more when it's something he really, really likes.
But that just reinforces the idea that...if even the smallest effort from him will make Taiki happier...he owes it to the other boy to try to give at least that. More than that. Especially now that he's seeing Taiki in such a happy daze...all because of something he said. If he has the power to do that...to make Taiki feel like that...then he can't hold back anymore. No matter how hard it is for him to do and say things like this, he'll just have to suck it up and try. If he said those words once...he can absolutely do it again. Maybe it'll even get easier...a little less nerve wracking. Who knows...
He closes his eyes- his face burying back into Taiki's hair again as he shakes his head against him. When he talks, his words are a little muffled too.]
No...you are.
[That much should be clear...there's no way he could measure up to Taiki.
Even though all the times he'd rejected the other...that's a thing of the past. He squeezes his eyes shut even harder- trying to block out all of the memories of...virtually all their past encounters. But he knows he can't get rid of them completely...not if he wants to make sure he never makes that same mistake again. He can't...he just can't. Especially not when Taiki's sitting there...saying he's the best. There's not a chance he could believe that now....but he can still try to work his way into being better.
He tilts his head to press his cheek against the top of the other's head- moving a hand up to move it through some of his hair. Taiki will be safe now...safe and warm. He'll get better...]
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But that just reinforces the idea that...if even the smallest effort from him will make Taiki happier...he owes it to the other boy to try to give at least that. More than that. Especially now that he's seeing Taiki in such a happy daze...all because of something he said. If he has the power to do that...to make Taiki feel like that...then he can't hold back anymore. No matter how hard it is for him to do and say things like this, he'll just have to suck it up and try. If he said those words once...he can absolutely do it again. Maybe it'll even get easier...a little less nerve wracking. Who knows...
He closes his eyes- his face burying back into Taiki's hair again as he shakes his head against him. When he talks, his words are a little muffled too.]
No...you are.
[That much should be clear...there's no way he could measure up to Taiki.
Even though all the times he'd rejected the other...that's a thing of the past. He squeezes his eyes shut even harder- trying to block out all of the memories of...virtually all their past encounters. But he knows he can't get rid of them completely...not if he wants to make sure he never makes that same mistake again. He can't...he just can't. Especially not when Taiki's sitting there...saying he's the best. There's not a chance he could believe that now....but he can still try to work his way into being better.
He tilts his head to press his cheek against the top of the other's head- moving a hand up to move it through some of his hair. Taiki will be safe now...safe and warm. He'll get better...]