[ All of it catches Agreas so much off guard that he's easily pulled a little closer again by Elijah. Even if he wasn't, it'd still be easy - he feels so much guilt towards the omega that he'd let the other punch him if it would make him feel any better, honestly.
But it doesn't seem like that is what Elijah needs. Because Elijah softly speaks up, but it's about nothing that Agreas might have anticipated.. because the implication is really heavy in just about everything about the other right now. And he knows that Elijah isn't the type to lie or sugarcoat anything, he's painfully direct if he wants anything. Or rather, he's never seen Elijah be avoidant of anything other than asking people for help at least half of the time.
The one that Elijah did call for help.. it was him every time. It's true. But Agreas never viewed it the way the other did. It wasn't that he accepted the risk, it was that he had completely convinced himself to resist his urges no matter what. That he could be strong enough for Elijah's sake, since.. since he wanted the other to be happy. Ever since the day they found out he was an alpha and Elijah an omega, it had just felt natural to him to do this much for him. Elijah hated it so much, and Agreas.. he wanted to see him happy. Somehow. Despite the circumstances. It wasn't as if Elijah had ever been a particularly outwardly happy or brightly smiling person before, sure, but Agreas didn't want to see him having to be gloomy about the rest of his life. Agreas is the kind of guy that has a hard time closing his eyes when he sees suffering, and Elijah is even more at the top of his list when it comes to that. Because he's always been important to him already - in some way, even if it wasn't this.
Not until now.
It still feels a little hard to reach out towards Elijah, yet part of him wants to. He's not sure if it's some new subconscious desire after having claimed Elijah or if it's just that he really wants to make sure the other is alright, but it's definitely there. It's why Agreas' hands moves a little, like he's going to touch Elijah, but it doesn't get much further than his fingertips brushing a little against the other's shoulder before his hand drops again.
Elijah chose him, he consciously asked him for help, he does know that, and he knows the other is lying, but.. he's still not sure of the full extent of it. It feels like hoping for a little too much to just think everything might still be okay, even though this happened. Because the idea of Elijah being his omega, circumstances aside, makes him feel...
Like butterflies in his stomach. Like a warm feeling at the thought of just how cute Elijah looks when he's all vulnerable. Like.. God. Even by his standards, that's just-- ]
Did you.. want it? Even this far, I mean.
[ It's still a little hard to think of what to say, and it means it isn't coming out all coherently - but the core of it is still there, and something a little like hope glimmers at the corners of Agreas' eyes. Even this far.. even to the point that they're mated now. Elijah doesn't mind even that? ]
[Elijah certainly doesn't mind anything about this...if he'd had any disdain about being mated to Agreas, he wouldn't bother keeping it hidden. In fact, he'd realized a long time ago that he wouldn't mind it, and nothing about the idea bothered him. It could've been as simple as that explanation- that he could tolerate it, and there was nothing more to it. Maybe it would've been easier that way too...or maybe not. But learning, and accepting the other implications behind those initial feelings of comfort- realizing it wasn't that simple-...doing that was a lot harder.
And of course he should've known Agreas would've asked him a question that shot straight to the heart of the matter. He's not surprised by it, no. But that won't make it any easier for him to know how to answer.
The short end of it...Elijah isn't good at this sort of thing.
It's true enough that he's painfully direct with...almost everything. But anything like this- anything that makes him feel vulnerable, or exposed... Unsurprisingly, it becomes much harder to speak his mind so plainly. Like all of his words dry up in his throat before they can even reach his mouth.
And this whole scenario here isn't quite so simple as Elijah just pining for Agreas on his own. It started out with the simple realization that Elijah couldn't get as close to another human being as he already was to Agreas. Not ever... plain and simple. And even if he'd wanted to try...it would take years, at the absolute least. From there...everything else started falling into place. To put it plainly- his attachment Agreas far outweighs his hate for alphas. Even to the point where he would've been completely willing to let Agreas take him, if he'd asked for it.
Elijah's eyes flicker down to Agreas's hand- the one that'd dropped away from his shoulder. It's almost funny how reserved he seems now, when he'd been so quick to press his hands all over Elijah the night before. But there's an instinctual pull there for him too...one that wants the soft touch against his shoulder to return again. He's always been the type to fight against his omega instincts after coming to resent them so much...except he's sure that this is something he would want- with or without the instincts attached.
He still doesn't move right away though...as much as he knows he owes Agreas an answer, it's not the sort of thing he can blurt out.
But when he looks back up to the other's eyes, and sees that spark of hope in them...it's enough to make him force out a small, but noticeable nod. As quiet as the gesture is, it still feels like it's made the world around them both go completely silent. A moment passes in that silence before he reaches down- letting all of his fingertips slide very, very softly underneath Agreas's hand...gliding over the other's palm, and then his fingers in turn. It's a gesture that's not forcing him to come back, but beckoning him to return instead.]
You are...my only exception.
[The only alpha he could never hate...the only one he could develop any sort of bond with...and the only person he'd ever let get this close to begin with.]
[ Elijah doesn't have to say more than that. Agreas would know that he isn't getting much more out of the other anyway.. Elijah has always been like this. As direct and blunt as he is, there's a few things he does hold back more.. and this would be one of them, wouldn't it. This is just about as direct of an anwer as the other can give to his question, especially when it's combined with that small gesture.
It's mostly the gesture that does it. The way Elijah's fingertips slide across his hand, beckoning him back.. there's no way he could refuse those. Especially since it seems to knock something in his subconscious into gear.
Agreas has never been a very violent sort of alpha. Sure, he does have a temper, but he's not the type to hurt or force anyone who doesn't deserve it. People who deserve it can fuck right off or even get hit by him, but Agreas is endlessly good to people who haven't done any wrong - and that's exactly where his alpha instincts do kick in. Rather than being forceful or violent, it's more like a gut instinct to keep the people important as safe as he can. As close as he can. It's a warm sort of overprotective force that he's definitely felt around Elijah before, to a point where he couldn't identify anymore how much of it was personal and how much of it were his alpha instincts acting up. Every time he carried Elijah close, he always felt like holding him a little closer, a little tighter, feeling like crawling into the bed besides him and just protectively wrap himself around the other.
He never acted upon them. It felt like crossing a line at the moments when Elijah was most vulnerable, and he knew the worst of his instincts would then just kick in anyway and take Elijah, claiming him for himself.
But now it's already happened. He's already mated with Elijah, and Elijah himself is even okay with it. He's even trying to wordlessly say Agreas should touch him again, and nothing sets off that warm gut feeling the way that does. If Elijah is alright with it, then he'll gladly at least give in to that part of his instincts.
His body follows the movements of Elijah's fingertips, wordlessly moving closer to the other before he's already snuck his arms around Elijah, holding the omega and pushing him down slowly to the bed with just his weight that's pressing against the other. His grip tightens a little once Elijah is lying there on his back, and the way Agreas finds the way his body protectively covers the other's like this feeling much better than he ever imagined it.
Which is saying a lot, considering how much he found himself getting riled up inside at times when he imagined holding Elijah like this to begin with.
He doesn't smile yet. It almost feels like he's in a daze instead, and Agreas ends up burying his face against Elijah's collar bone and shoulder, gently kissing the mark he left there last night. ]
Be my omega then, Elijah...
[ It's nothing that really still has to be agreed on. It's already happened, after all - even if either of them didn't like it, they're stuck together. But the part of Agreas that had such romantic ideas about this whole deal can't help but say it anyway, almost whispering between small kisses on the marked spot. ]
I'll be the best alpha for you.. I promise. [ He doesn't know just what would or wouldn't be embarrassing for Elijah in this situation, since he doesn't know just how far the exception stretches just for him - but he can't help but let the words spill out of his mouth anyway. His heart races so fast that they come out before he even thinks about it, straight from the more instinctive parts of his brain, so incredibly eager that Elijah is his omega now. His. Elijah who acts so strong but sometimes looks so cute and helpless is all his to comfort and protect. ]
[Even with Agreas reacting like that, Elijah can still tell he didn't quite drive home how much being an "exception" means to him. It's so much more than just Elijah saying "you're the only alpha I don't hate", it's his way of saying "you're the only alpha I could love". Not even just as an alpha...Agreas is the only person he has ever loved. But whatever strength there is to say those words so plainly...it feels like its thousands of miles away, and like he'd run out of breath and collapse if he actually tried to make it there.
He knew he wouldn't be able to do it well enough...even though reaching out to Agreas seemed to help anyway. But he's still left feeling angry at himself for not being able to convey even a fraction of what he's really been feeling. Realistically, he knows there's still time to say more, especially with what Agreas just said. But the thought of that makes his heart flutter with a surprising sense of anxiousness in his chest. How many times could he afford to get this wrong...? What if he leaves Agreas feeling like he's only "good enough", when that's not even remotely what Elijah's thinking?
Maybe it's something instinctual again...or maybe it's just that now, Agreas is finally holding him in his arms, and everything feels like it's finally right somehow...but as Elijah feels the other's heart racing against him, and feels those kisses against his shoulder, it seems like something inside of him is filling up, then breaking apart. It's not as simple as finally being able to satisfy the instinctive urges he's had before... Instead, it's like a dam has been broken, and everything inside is starting to flood out of him for the first time.
Right now...when Agreas seems to want to protect him with everything he has, Elijah feels more vulnerable than ever. Even more than when he'd woken up earlier. Even more than when he'd first found out he was an omega.
His arms slowly slide up Agreas's back- pressing tightly against him, and clenching his hands into half-fists. He buries his face down against the other's shoulder- knowing that it'd be hard to hide any vulnerability with how he feels right now, and knowing that it might be best not to hide it too.]
You are...You are.
[Not even "you WILL be". His voice is just barely a whisper, but still loud enough for Agreas to hear...and it's filled with more fragile emotion than any tone he's ever taken before.
He presses a small, surprisingly gentle kiss against Agreas's shoulder before squeezing his eyes shut- trying to block out everything except for that warm, comforting embrace around him. It's to mirror the kisses on his own shoulder...just in case the words don't get through again, maybe that still will.
Finally...he sucks in a breath before he manages to force the last few words out.]
I could never have been anyone else's.
[He buries his face down a little bit more, and lowers his voice again- like he doesn't want anyone to ever hear this aside from his alpha.]
[ It's a little weird to feel Elijah so affectionately against him. Not that the other has ever been downright mean to him - nothing Agreas would slot into that category, anyway - but he's still not the type to act like this. And it seems like his heat at least went away after what they did last time, so it can't even fully be his omega side acting up and deciding on what to do without the rest of Elijah's personality weighing in.
Which means all of this is just genuinely coming from him. That sort kiss, the way he clings to him in return, the way he buries himself against Agreas unlike anything Elijah has ever done before.
And more importantly.. there's those words. There's the other saying that he was already Agreas' before this. At least the implication of that does get through to the alpha - Elijah already liked him before this. He would already have been okay with this for a while, if not downright just wanted it. It makes Agreas wonder for a moment why Elijah didn't just say anything or ask all that time, since Agreas purposefully kept his distance in at least a romantic or sexual way because he didn't want to hurt Elijah's feelings - even though he felt the same thing, that his heart belonged to Elijah long before. He wouldn't have minded Elijah being his omega from the start, and if the other hadn't been so hurt by finding out he was an omega, he would have proposed it right from the moment they found out what they were.
But he already knows why he didn't say a thing. Because Elijah just isn't the type to say it to begin with. He's never been good with soft kind of words, so how could he ever say that he was his long ago? It feels like a small miracle that the other manages to force out those words right now, and Agreas does realise it just shows how hard the other is trying for him here.
It means the world to him.
He raises his face from the other's shoulder just enough so he can look at Elijah, fingers gently pressing on the side of the other's head and his chin so he can turn to him to face him. The stress from only a few moments ago seems to fade away completely as he brushes a little bit of hair out of the other's face. If it had been like this all this time, then it's a good thing last night happened - if not just so they could give in to the things they'd normally be able to do around each other. ]
Elijah... [ He practically breathes out the other's name before bringing his face close enough to the omega's to kiss him. It's different from last night when they were just running on instinct - this time it's slowly and softly more than the desperate, feverish hard kisses from last night.
Once he pulls away, he lets out a breath of relief. ]
I'm so happy to hear that.
[ And he does seem to mean it. It's not like Agreas is entirely unfriendly most of the time, but people tend to be intimidated because of his looks and the way his facial expression tends to seem apathic at best - his softer side just doesn't show easily to people who don't know him well.
But around Elijah like this.. it's drawn out almost naturally. Even though he doesn't fully realise it, he's just laughing like a goof right now, like he's stuck in a happy dream. ]
[Everything back when Elijah had found out he was an omega feels so...muddled. His own feelings towards Agreas, even...like he always knew how he really felt, but he held everything in check for a long while. It's strange to think about the way things could've gone if Elijah hadn't been an omega. And somehow...a little sadder to think about how things could've gone if it'd kept going the way they had been. Maybe he would've found some way to confess everything eventually, but...that's neither here nor there. If this is the outcome, then everything before now is worth it.
It's so...so relieving to know that...at least for right now, when it really does matter, he can at least do this much. He can at least make Agreas smile like that...and laugh like that...and say that he's happy. It feels like something in his heart is melting at the sight of it- to the point where it's almost too much. Like he's looking directly into some radiant ray of light. He has to look away again for a moment...but only for a moment- closing his eyes as a very small smile forms on his own face.]
Good...
[His voice is so soft- just barely above a whisper. He almost seems a little shy...or embarrassed even when he looks back at the alpha, which is a rare enough thing for him already. And then even moreso as he tilts his head to press a very small, gentle kiss onto the other's lips.
It doesn't matter that he's the omega, and Agreas is the alpha...because this side of Agreas has always been for him instead of anyone else. And that's exactly one of the reasons Elijah could always put his trust in him. He leans his head down again...resting it against the other's shoulder- closing his eyes, and letting himself relax just a little now that Agreas seems happy...]
That's all I want...
[Just...this. Making Agreas happy. The two of them laying here together- like they were always meant to. At least, that's how it feels now that they are here. As if there wasn't any other possible way it could've gone.
It's almost funny...no matter how much he hated being an omega before, for the first time in his life...he's actually grateful for it. If this is the way things end up for the two of them, he can be happy...Now, he can be Agreas's for the rest of his life...and know that Agreas would be his too. There's no going back...and Elijah would never want to anyway. He's never felt so relieved about anything before...like a weight's been lifted off his shoulders.]
[ It does feel like all of this was somehow meant to be. Even though Agreas freaked out over the idea of having mated Elijah at first, it was only just because he was afraid of hurting the other.. not because he disliked the thought of being mated to him to begin with. It's actually a nice thing, a good thing, and it only starts feeling that way more the longer he lies here next to the omega.
Maybe it's partially alpha instincts, but he likes lying here like this with Elijah so close to him. Feeling the other right there reassures him, like he knows that no one could try taking Elijah away from him or hurting him - even though it's not like something like that would happen inside the house to begin with. But it still makes him feel at peace, knowing that he can shield the other with his entire body like this. Elijah's more fragile omega body... his omega.
Agreas wraps his arms a little more around the other. If he didn't still feel a little exhausted from everything that happened in a haze of instinct last night, he would have scooped the other right up and carried him in his arms. Part of him just wants to show off to the whole world that Elijah is his now. Elijah who can be so adorably soft at times, incredibly rare times that he shows only to him... the thought that he's the only one getting to see this softness from the other makes his heart race a little in his chest. It feels so important. ]
When did you get so cute...? [ He doesn't say it too loudly, like even these words are just meant to be between the two of them. Agreas doesn't even mean it in a way to embarrass Elijah or anything.. it's just genuine. He's always thought Elijah had more of a cute side to him than most people would think, but it's like it's amplified right now, maybe a weird after-effect from mating only just before.
Agreas' hand moves over to lightly brush through Elijah's hair, moving it away from his forehead so he can lean over to plant a soft kiss there instead now. Right now he just wants to kiss him all over.. not hungrily, but just softly, like he's marking Elijah all over again in his own way. Like he wants to show Elijah just how appreciated he is, and just how much of a good alpha he plans on being for the other. So good that Elijah won't even have to think for a moment again how much he hated being an omega.
Even as he pulls away again, his hand is still moving comfortingly through the other's hair. ]
My cute omega...
[ It feels so nice to say that somehow. Like something soft and warm blossoming up inside of his chest. ]
[This is the first time he's really been fully willing to just...give in to his omega instincts and fully accept them. There was always a lot of resistance before...a lot of wondering if his instincts would make him do something he didn't actually want to do. But if there's anything Elijah can trust, it's that he wants Agreas...he wants to be his, and he's content to just give himself over to the other completely.
Even though it's still embarrassing to hear Agreas call him cute like that, Elijah doesn't even mind it all that much. Maybe because he knows all of this will just stay between the two of them...he doesn't have to worry about anyone other than his alpha seeing him like this. And he doesn't have to worry about anyone else laying a hand on him either.
The hand on his head feels so nice that he closes his eyes and leans into it a little- silently asking for a bit more of it. It's so, so comforting...]
Mmmm...
[It's just a soft mumble, but it's still him agreeing with the sentiment. In the same moment he buries his face against Agreas's neck- curling up against him a little more too.
Somehow, this is easier than he ever thought it'd be...just giving into his softer side a little. It's still impossible for someone like him to go into it full force, but...he still likes this. Admitting, even to himself, that he wants Agreas to hold him, to wrap around him protectively like that, to mark him up more...and even to show everyone else that he's his. The thought of it makes his chest feel so light that it feels like he's floating.
It's something he'd even be willing to do now. Just let Agreas carry him...let everyone know that, maybe he is an omega...but he's Agreas's omega. That's something he'd love for everyone on the street to see.]
[ All of this is so nice. It's like he can understand Elijah a little better too like this.. not that he didn't understand the other before, they had been around each other long enough that he knew better than most people what Elijah was like and the small details of his likes and dislikes and all.. but no matter how well you know each other, there's always some stuff that's hard to share as humans. Things you miss because the other keeps it just in thoughts, stuff like that. But there must be something about their connection now that makes it feel easier to understand the other, to look at Elijah's face and know what he wants right now.
Which is a good thing as far as Agreas is concerned. He's seen a lot of shitty alphas out there that just see their omegas as property, that treat them like their personal sex slaves or something - but he couldn't imagine ever feeling that way himself. He has his alpha instincts, of course, but they've never turned cruel before. Even now it just makes him feel like wanting to pamper his own personal omega, making sure that Elijah knows he can get absolutely anything he wants from his alpha. He wants to make the other happy and satisfied more than anything in return for the way Elijah's very presence this close to him fills him with a warm feeling.
He knows the way the other leans into his hand is a sign he wants more, and so he doesn't stop. Agreas' hand keeps moving through his omega's hair, the corners of his lips tugging up into a smile instinctively at the realisation that Elijah - Elijah of all people - isn't denying that he's being really cute right now. A side to the usually more grumpy and distant guy that's all Agreas'. As an alpha, not having to share that is the most attractive thought possible.
After a moment he shifts a bit, just enough that his head can reach a little lower, his lips planting kisses onto Elijah's chest. It's not too bad to indulge in this a little now they've only just mated, right...? It's a good way to see what Elijah likes as well, which spots are the most sensitive for him, in what ways Agreas can make him feel good.
Some of the kisses are a little harder than others, leaving trails of small red marks on the other's chest. Ones that are easily hidden, it's not exactly like Elijah shares Agreas' own shirtless habits. It's really tempting to go a little higher, to kiss Elijah's neck and show the world - but he's holding back for now. Even though he trusts the other's words fully about being fine with belonging to Agreas and all, he still doesn't want to push it to lengths that Elijah is uncomfortable with... it's the one thing he could never forgive himself for, especially since things seem so good right now. ]
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But it doesn't seem like that is what Elijah needs. Because Elijah softly speaks up, but it's about nothing that Agreas might have anticipated.. because the implication is really heavy in just about everything about the other right now. And he knows that Elijah isn't the type to lie or sugarcoat anything, he's painfully direct if he wants anything. Or rather, he's never seen Elijah be avoidant of anything other than asking people for help at least half of the time.
The one that Elijah did call for help.. it was him every time. It's true. But Agreas never viewed it the way the other did. It wasn't that he accepted the risk, it was that he had completely convinced himself to resist his urges no matter what. That he could be strong enough for Elijah's sake, since.. since he wanted the other to be happy. Ever since the day they found out he was an alpha and Elijah an omega, it had just felt natural to him to do this much for him. Elijah hated it so much, and Agreas.. he wanted to see him happy. Somehow. Despite the circumstances. It wasn't as if Elijah had ever been a particularly outwardly happy or brightly smiling person before, sure, but Agreas didn't want to see him having to be gloomy about the rest of his life. Agreas is the kind of guy that has a hard time closing his eyes when he sees suffering, and Elijah is even more at the top of his list when it comes to that. Because he's always been important to him already - in some way, even if it wasn't this.
Not until now.
It still feels a little hard to reach out towards Elijah, yet part of him wants to. He's not sure if it's some new subconscious desire after having claimed Elijah or if it's just that he really wants to make sure the other is alright, but it's definitely there. It's why Agreas' hands moves a little, like he's going to touch Elijah, but it doesn't get much further than his fingertips brushing a little against the other's shoulder before his hand drops again.
Elijah chose him, he consciously asked him for help, he does know that, and he knows the other is lying, but.. he's still not sure of the full extent of it. It feels like hoping for a little too much to just think everything might still be okay, even though this happened. Because the idea of Elijah being his omega, circumstances aside, makes him feel...
Like butterflies in his stomach. Like a warm feeling at the thought of just how cute Elijah looks when he's all vulnerable. Like.. God. Even by his standards, that's just-- ]
Did you.. want it? Even this far, I mean.
[ It's still a little hard to think of what to say, and it means it isn't coming out all coherently - but the core of it is still there, and something a little like hope glimmers at the corners of Agreas' eyes. Even this far.. even to the point that they're mated now. Elijah doesn't mind even that? ]
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And of course he should've known Agreas would've asked him a question that shot straight to the heart of the matter. He's not surprised by it, no. But that won't make it any easier for him to know how to answer.
The short end of it...Elijah isn't good at this sort of thing.
It's true enough that he's painfully direct with...almost everything. But anything like this- anything that makes him feel vulnerable, or exposed... Unsurprisingly, it becomes much harder to speak his mind so plainly. Like all of his words dry up in his throat before they can even reach his mouth.
And this whole scenario here isn't quite so simple as Elijah just pining for Agreas on his own. It started out with the simple realization that Elijah couldn't get as close to another human being as he already was to Agreas. Not ever... plain and simple. And even if he'd wanted to try...it would take years, at the absolute least. From there...everything else started falling into place. To put it plainly- his attachment Agreas far outweighs his hate for alphas. Even to the point where he would've been completely willing to let Agreas take him, if he'd asked for it.
Elijah's eyes flicker down to Agreas's hand- the one that'd dropped away from his shoulder. It's almost funny how reserved he seems now, when he'd been so quick to press his hands all over Elijah the night before. But there's an instinctual pull there for him too...one that wants the soft touch against his shoulder to return again. He's always been the type to fight against his omega instincts after coming to resent them so much...except he's sure that this is something he would want- with or without the instincts attached.
He still doesn't move right away though...as much as he knows he owes Agreas an answer, it's not the sort of thing he can blurt out.
But when he looks back up to the other's eyes, and sees that spark of hope in them...it's enough to make him force out a small, but noticeable nod. As quiet as the gesture is, it still feels like it's made the world around them both go completely silent. A moment passes in that silence before he reaches down- letting all of his fingertips slide very, very softly underneath Agreas's hand...gliding over the other's palm, and then his fingers in turn. It's a gesture that's not forcing him to come back, but beckoning him to return instead.]
You are...my only exception.
[The only alpha he could never hate...the only one he could develop any sort of bond with...and the only person he'd ever let get this close to begin with.]
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It's mostly the gesture that does it. The way Elijah's fingertips slide across his hand, beckoning him back.. there's no way he could refuse those. Especially since it seems to knock something in his subconscious into gear.
Agreas has never been a very violent sort of alpha. Sure, he does have a temper, but he's not the type to hurt or force anyone who doesn't deserve it. People who deserve it can fuck right off or even get hit by him, but Agreas is endlessly good to people who haven't done any wrong - and that's exactly where his alpha instincts do kick in. Rather than being forceful or violent, it's more like a gut instinct to keep the people important as safe as he can. As close as he can. It's a warm sort of overprotective force that he's definitely felt around Elijah before, to a point where he couldn't identify anymore how much of it was personal and how much of it were his alpha instincts acting up. Every time he carried Elijah close, he always felt like holding him a little closer, a little tighter, feeling like crawling into the bed besides him and just protectively wrap himself around the other.
He never acted upon them. It felt like crossing a line at the moments when Elijah was most vulnerable, and he knew the worst of his instincts would then just kick in anyway and take Elijah, claiming him for himself.
But now it's already happened. He's already mated with Elijah, and Elijah himself is even okay with it. He's even trying to wordlessly say Agreas should touch him again, and nothing sets off that warm gut feeling the way that does. If Elijah is alright with it, then he'll gladly at least give in to that part of his instincts.
His body follows the movements of Elijah's fingertips, wordlessly moving closer to the other before he's already snuck his arms around Elijah, holding the omega and pushing him down slowly to the bed with just his weight that's pressing against the other. His grip tightens a little once Elijah is lying there on his back, and the way Agreas finds the way his body protectively covers the other's like this feeling much better than he ever imagined it.
Which is saying a lot, considering how much he found himself getting riled up inside at times when he imagined holding Elijah like this to begin with.
He doesn't smile yet. It almost feels like he's in a daze instead, and Agreas ends up burying his face against Elijah's collar bone and shoulder, gently kissing the mark he left there last night. ]
Be my omega then, Elijah...
[ It's nothing that really still has to be agreed on. It's already happened, after all - even if either of them didn't like it, they're stuck together. But the part of Agreas that had such romantic ideas about this whole deal can't help but say it anyway, almost whispering between small kisses on the marked spot. ]
I'll be the best alpha for you.. I promise. [ He doesn't know just what would or wouldn't be embarrassing for Elijah in this situation, since he doesn't know just how far the exception stretches just for him - but he can't help but let the words spill out of his mouth anyway. His heart races so fast that they come out before he even thinks about it, straight from the more instinctive parts of his brain, so incredibly eager that Elijah is his omega now. His. Elijah who acts so strong but sometimes looks so cute and helpless is all his to comfort and protect. ]
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He knew he wouldn't be able to do it well enough...even though reaching out to Agreas seemed to help anyway. But he's still left feeling angry at himself for not being able to convey even a fraction of what he's really been feeling. Realistically, he knows there's still time to say more, especially with what Agreas just said. But the thought of that makes his heart flutter with a surprising sense of anxiousness in his chest. How many times could he afford to get this wrong...? What if he leaves Agreas feeling like he's only "good enough", when that's not even remotely what Elijah's thinking?
Maybe it's something instinctual again...or maybe it's just that now, Agreas is finally holding him in his arms, and everything feels like it's finally right somehow...but as Elijah feels the other's heart racing against him, and feels those kisses against his shoulder, it seems like something inside of him is filling up, then breaking apart. It's not as simple as finally being able to satisfy the instinctive urges he's had before... Instead, it's like a dam has been broken, and everything inside is starting to flood out of him for the first time.
Right now...when Agreas seems to want to protect him with everything he has, Elijah feels more vulnerable than ever. Even more than when he'd woken up earlier. Even more than when he'd first found out he was an omega.
His arms slowly slide up Agreas's back- pressing tightly against him, and clenching his hands into half-fists. He buries his face down against the other's shoulder- knowing that it'd be hard to hide any vulnerability with how he feels right now, and knowing that it might be best not to hide it too.]
You are...You are.
[Not even "you WILL be". His voice is just barely a whisper, but still loud enough for Agreas to hear...and it's filled with more fragile emotion than any tone he's ever taken before.
He presses a small, surprisingly gentle kiss against Agreas's shoulder before squeezing his eyes shut- trying to block out everything except for that warm, comforting embrace around him. It's to mirror the kisses on his own shoulder...just in case the words don't get through again, maybe that still will.
Finally...he sucks in a breath before he manages to force the last few words out.]
I could never have been anyone else's.
[He buries his face down a little bit more, and lowers his voice again- like he doesn't want anyone to ever hear this aside from his alpha.]
I...was already yours.
[Even before last night.]
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Which means all of this is just genuinely coming from him. That sort kiss, the way he clings to him in return, the way he buries himself against Agreas unlike anything Elijah has ever done before.
And more importantly.. there's those words. There's the other saying that he was already Agreas' before this. At least the implication of that does get through to the alpha - Elijah already liked him before this. He would already have been okay with this for a while, if not downright just wanted it. It makes Agreas wonder for a moment why Elijah didn't just say anything or ask all that time, since Agreas purposefully kept his distance in at least a romantic or sexual way because he didn't want to hurt Elijah's feelings - even though he felt the same thing, that his heart belonged to Elijah long before. He wouldn't have minded Elijah being his omega from the start, and if the other hadn't been so hurt by finding out he was an omega, he would have proposed it right from the moment they found out what they were.
But he already knows why he didn't say a thing. Because Elijah just isn't the type to say it to begin with. He's never been good with soft kind of words, so how could he ever say that he was his long ago? It feels like a small miracle that the other manages to force out those words right now, and Agreas does realise it just shows how hard the other is trying for him here.
It means the world to him.
He raises his face from the other's shoulder just enough so he can look at Elijah, fingers gently pressing on the side of the other's head and his chin so he can turn to him to face him. The stress from only a few moments ago seems to fade away completely as he brushes a little bit of hair out of the other's face. If it had been like this all this time, then it's a good thing last night happened - if not just so they could give in to the things they'd normally be able to do around each other. ]
Elijah... [ He practically breathes out the other's name before bringing his face close enough to the omega's to kiss him. It's different from last night when they were just running on instinct - this time it's slowly and softly more than the desperate, feverish hard kisses from last night.
Once he pulls away, he lets out a breath of relief. ]
I'm so happy to hear that.
[ And he does seem to mean it. It's not like Agreas is entirely unfriendly most of the time, but people tend to be intimidated because of his looks and the way his facial expression tends to seem apathic at best - his softer side just doesn't show easily to people who don't know him well.
But around Elijah like this.. it's drawn out almost naturally. Even though he doesn't fully realise it, he's just laughing like a goof right now, like he's stuck in a happy dream. ]
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It's so...so relieving to know that...at least for right now, when it really does matter, he can at least do this much. He can at least make Agreas smile like that...and laugh like that...and say that he's happy. It feels like something in his heart is melting at the sight of it- to the point where it's almost too much. Like he's looking directly into some radiant ray of light. He has to look away again for a moment...but only for a moment- closing his eyes as a very small smile forms on his own face.]
Good...
[His voice is so soft- just barely above a whisper. He almost seems a little shy...or embarrassed even when he looks back at the alpha, which is a rare enough thing for him already. And then even moreso as he tilts his head to press a very small, gentle kiss onto the other's lips.
It doesn't matter that he's the omega, and Agreas is the alpha...because this side of Agreas has always been for him instead of anyone else. And that's exactly one of the reasons Elijah could always put his trust in him. He leans his head down again...resting it against the other's shoulder- closing his eyes, and letting himself relax just a little now that Agreas seems happy...]
That's all I want...
[Just...this. Making Agreas happy. The two of them laying here together- like they were always meant to. At least, that's how it feels now that they are here. As if there wasn't any other possible way it could've gone.
It's almost funny...no matter how much he hated being an omega before, for the first time in his life...he's actually grateful for it. If this is the way things end up for the two of them, he can be happy...Now, he can be Agreas's for the rest of his life...and know that Agreas would be his too. There's no going back...and Elijah would never want to anyway. He's never felt so relieved about anything before...like a weight's been lifted off his shoulders.]
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Maybe it's partially alpha instincts, but he likes lying here like this with Elijah so close to him. Feeling the other right there reassures him, like he knows that no one could try taking Elijah away from him or hurting him - even though it's not like something like that would happen inside the house to begin with. But it still makes him feel at peace, knowing that he can shield the other with his entire body like this. Elijah's more fragile omega body... his omega.
Agreas wraps his arms a little more around the other. If he didn't still feel a little exhausted from everything that happened in a haze of instinct last night, he would have scooped the other right up and carried him in his arms. Part of him just wants to show off to the whole world that Elijah is his now. Elijah who can be so adorably soft at times, incredibly rare times that he shows only to him... the thought that he's the only one getting to see this softness from the other makes his heart race a little in his chest. It feels so important. ]
When did you get so cute...? [ He doesn't say it too loudly, like even these words are just meant to be between the two of them. Agreas doesn't even mean it in a way to embarrass Elijah or anything.. it's just genuine. He's always thought Elijah had more of a cute side to him than most people would think, but it's like it's amplified right now, maybe a weird after-effect from mating only just before.
Agreas' hand moves over to lightly brush through Elijah's hair, moving it away from his forehead so he can lean over to plant a soft kiss there instead now. Right now he just wants to kiss him all over.. not hungrily, but just softly, like he's marking Elijah all over again in his own way. Like he wants to show Elijah just how appreciated he is, and just how much of a good alpha he plans on being for the other. So good that Elijah won't even have to think for a moment again how much he hated being an omega.
Even as he pulls away again, his hand is still moving comfortingly through the other's hair. ]
My cute omega...
[ It feels so nice to say that somehow. Like something soft and warm blossoming up inside of his chest. ]
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Even though it's still embarrassing to hear Agreas call him cute like that, Elijah doesn't even mind it all that much. Maybe because he knows all of this will just stay between the two of them...he doesn't have to worry about anyone other than his alpha seeing him like this. And he doesn't have to worry about anyone else laying a hand on him either.
The hand on his head feels so nice that he closes his eyes and leans into it a little- silently asking for a bit more of it. It's so, so comforting...]
Mmmm...
[It's just a soft mumble, but it's still him agreeing with the sentiment. In the same moment he buries his face against Agreas's neck- curling up against him a little more too.
Somehow, this is easier than he ever thought it'd be...just giving into his softer side a little. It's still impossible for someone like him to go into it full force, but...he still likes this. Admitting, even to himself, that he wants Agreas to hold him, to wrap around him protectively like that, to mark him up more...and even to show everyone else that he's his. The thought of it makes his chest feel so light that it feels like he's floating.
It's something he'd even be willing to do now. Just let Agreas carry him...let everyone know that, maybe he is an omega...but he's Agreas's omega. That's something he'd love for everyone on the street to see.]
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Which is a good thing as far as Agreas is concerned. He's seen a lot of shitty alphas out there that just see their omegas as property, that treat them like their personal sex slaves or something - but he couldn't imagine ever feeling that way himself. He has his alpha instincts, of course, but they've never turned cruel before. Even now it just makes him feel like wanting to pamper his own personal omega, making sure that Elijah knows he can get absolutely anything he wants from his alpha. He wants to make the other happy and satisfied more than anything in return for the way Elijah's very presence this close to him fills him with a warm feeling.
He knows the way the other leans into his hand is a sign he wants more, and so he doesn't stop. Agreas' hand keeps moving through his omega's hair, the corners of his lips tugging up into a smile instinctively at the realisation that Elijah - Elijah of all people - isn't denying that he's being really cute right now. A side to the usually more grumpy and distant guy that's all Agreas'. As an alpha, not having to share that is the most attractive thought possible.
After a moment he shifts a bit, just enough that his head can reach a little lower, his lips planting kisses onto Elijah's chest. It's not too bad to indulge in this a little now they've only just mated, right...? It's a good way to see what Elijah likes as well, which spots are the most sensitive for him, in what ways Agreas can make him feel good.
Some of the kisses are a little harder than others, leaving trails of small red marks on the other's chest. Ones that are easily hidden, it's not exactly like Elijah shares Agreas' own shirtless habits. It's really tempting to go a little higher, to kiss Elijah's neck and show the world - but he's holding back for now. Even though he trusts the other's words fully about being fine with belonging to Agreas and all, he still doesn't want to push it to lengths that Elijah is uncomfortable with... it's the one thing he could never forgive himself for, especially since things seem so good right now. ]