[ The words come out with a little difficulty, if not just since her actually recognizing him only confirms the fact that it really is her. That she's here, that she's alive, that he can meet her again - they're all good things, no doubt. But the shadow of the last time they saw each other hangs over him like a weight pressing down on his shoulders hard.
He abandoned her, didn't he? He lead her there to be killed - and despite the fact that he didn't have any other choice, it's been weighing on him heavily ever since. Why didn't he just find some way to save her-- that's what he thought to himself over and over when he was alone. Wasn't that why he got with the police to begin with, to save people, not get them killed? ]
I thought.. [ .. you were dead too, he means to say, but he can't force the words past his lips. They feel too loaded, too harsh, and he swallows them right back up, shaking his head a little.
That's not what she needs to hear, and it's not what he wants to say. He wants to say that he's so glad to see her, that he's sorry if she might have worried about him when she heard that, that so much happened--
But he has to say the most important thing first, right? ]
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[ The words come out with a little difficulty, if not just since her actually recognizing him only confirms the fact that it really is her. That she's here, that she's alive, that he can meet her again - they're all good things, no doubt. But the shadow of the last time they saw each other hangs over him like a weight pressing down on his shoulders hard.
He abandoned her, didn't he? He lead her there to be killed - and despite the fact that he didn't have any other choice, it's been weighing on him heavily ever since. Why didn't he just find some way to save her-- that's what he thought to himself over and over when he was alone. Wasn't that why he got with the police to begin with, to save people, not get them killed? ]
I thought.. [ .. you were dead too, he means to say, but he can't force the words past his lips. They feel too loaded, too harsh, and he swallows them right back up, shaking his head a little.
That's not what she needs to hear, and it's not what he wants to say. He wants to say that he's so glad to see her, that he's sorry if she might have worried about him when she heard that, that so much happened--
But he has to say the most important thing first, right? ]
.. I'm sorry.
[ For last time - for all of it. ]