ic; peel the scars off my back, i don't need them anymore

[jinxings]

( leaves ryo and kento here since i can tbh )

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[fauxtality]

[Even though his eyes are also closed, he doesn't need to look at Haku to know the other man's words are genuine. And so raw in their honesty. Even if he almost stumbles over what to say, but Eiri understands. And his lips curl up just a tiny bit.

Haku is...

Well, he's certainly something. Annoying. Infuriating. Aloof. A complete and unrepentant slob.

...Held together by invisible threads.

Eiri doesn't know nearly enough about his Messiah, but what he does know is that his life has been one sad disaster after another, a series of events that would break even lesser men. But Haku is still around and remarkably stable, despite having lost various partners, despite having learned that his precious brother was the reason behind those lost partners, that Eiri himself had nearly been added to the body count. Somehow, Haku is okay.

But at the same time, in such a moment like this, he feels like a child, so vulnerable and in so much need of reassurance.

Protection.

Haku is oddly endearing, or at least that's what Eiri tells himself as his arms slip loosely around Haku's shoulders and he moves himself enough so he can hug Haku. He's endearing and has a certain childish charm that causes people to want to take care of him.

Yeah. That's the reason.

(That's not the only reason and Eiri knows it. He knows it.)

After a few moments of silence, Eiri finally speaks again.]

Just stay here, yeah? You're my Messiah. And...

[His hold tightens slightly.]

And I'm yours.

[jinxings]

[ Just staying here.

If it's that easy.. well, of course he can do it. In fact, it's something he would want to do even if it wouldn't help Eiri specifically to begin with. After what they've gone through now he certainly doesn't want to be seperated from Eiri. He didn't want to be seperated from him to begin with, he didn't want to lose another Messiah, it's just that he still tried to prepare himself from it, tried to distance himself from Eiri as much as he could.

It never worked though. No matter what he did, Haku always found himself drawn more and more towards the loud and easily angered guy who called himself his Messiah. At first it had just been amusement at seeing his reactions, but slowly over time it grew into something a little more. A fondness for how open Eiri was about everything, how genuine and true to himself he was -

Everything that Haku isn't.

And now all he's telling him to do is just stay there. To continue being Messiah. As if it isn't a natural thing already, as if Haku isn't already attached and a little (okay, no, very much so) codependent.. ]

I'm not going anywhere.

[ How could he, when he's so nicely enveloped by Eiri's warmth like this? Eiri's body pressed against his own, the arms around his shoulders.. he doesn't want to ever lose that. He doesn't want to lose Eiri. But instead of dealing with that by acting distant and annoying, he's going to tackle it head on by protecting Eiri, by relying on his Messiah. By believing in him.

Sure, getting attached to your Messiah - even if it's practically necessary - is always a risk. Haku knows. He's been on the losing side of that risk far too many times. But somehow it doesn't feel too bad to risk it this time when this is what he's getting.

Letting himself (carefully, so Eiri's sore body won't have to make too many quick sudden movements) drop on the bed next to the other guy instead of hovering above him, Haku's fingers cautiously move to find scarless spots on Eiri's back, lightly digging his fingers in there, clinging to the other in return.

It's more than Haku would have let himself do at any other time before, but now he just snuggles straight into the embrace. He can't help it. Not when it feels so nice and warm and protective and basically everything he's lacked yet needed ever since he was that lost child alone on the street found by Sakura. ]