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kazutake "actual hobo" amagiri ([personal profile] kazutake) wrote in [community profile] mysteries2014-12-25 04:07 pm

ic; trying so hard to speak and fighting with my weak hand



( me forever being sad about lack of bloody toki no kizuna cgs... )
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[personal profile] valkyrier 2015-03-24 05:22 am (UTC)(link)
[ she had never considered it.

Doing everything she could to push her entire self away from what her physical body defined her as, the idea of womanhood was as foreign a concept for her to grasp as if she'd never even witnessed it a day in her life.

(But, it's untrue. She witnesses it all the time, just instead as an outsider. Women in their delicate forms, to give everything that the men cannot.

And Yukina was sure she could give none of such things. It was one side or the other and more important than anything else was the survival of her clan and to uphold their honor and duty. That's all she was trained for.

That's all she knew. )

It's still all she knows. Because when he actually returns the kiss, Yukina feels herself fall into such uncertainty about what the proper course of action to such occurring is. She had done it without considering past her own actions and perhaps Kazutake thought she would be a fine bride to someone one day, But Yukina has never even been able to see any relationship past Yasehime. She couldn't fathom anyone looking at her in such a way—even Kazutake, no, especially Kazutake! Even though he insisted she was a woman whereas it was rather easy to forget amidst the childish teasing of Chitose and Kazuya, it did more than paint a picture for her. Kazutake's preoccupation with his clan's welfare, not just in the direct bloodline of the next head, made it difficult for her to imagine him marrying soon. But, when he did, she imagined it would have to be a perfect traditional woman—simply because everything Kazutake did was as close to the view of a perfect traditional man.

His desire to protect, his need to take the burden and provide the solution no matter the odds; and his inability to share the sense of defeat.

In her attempts to interact with the others, she'd been so caught up in simply trying to not act so obviously as an outsider even when they all did their best to include her that anything beyond making their efforts not be in vain due to her lack of social grace was forfeit. And now isn't the time, she knows. It's not long enough her to have to consider a next step, and feeling him respond in the way he does admittedly give her some small measure of ability to re suppress her fears.

His words—that slight but honest sound of a laugh—even moreso.

But, still, even his resolve, she is well aware his condition is not one he should be moving in, nevermind, fighting. She doesn't want him to fight at all, but he can't let her fight without him. There to be another way, something—

It's all so fast, and she's sure they haven't lost that much time to give the enemy such time to close in but her heart ices over when Kazutake is suddenly grabbed and pulled from her. Maybe she should be relieved he's merely grabbed rather than shot or stabbed, but her instinct is to not let them take him from her.

To act successfully is difficult, though, when she's grabbed to prevent her from managing to reach the other despite her physical protest. Her expression shifts as her attention changes from Kazutake to this enemy—not humans; rogue demons. She will still never understand the allure and even moreso their willingness to kill their own kind. That was a human trait, a human affair that should have stayed such and although she is and has tried to understand these things for the sake of the others with them all taking various sides, she—

They won't even think of piercing my heart.

In Kazutake's condition, like this they wouldn't... not to a clan head. Not even with only a shred of their demon heritage left in them would they stoop so low...

There is a small amount of doubt, though, to have her speaking before she can even fully comprehend what she's saying or doing. And the one holding her better not even stray a second if they planned on keeping her restrained for long.
]

Don't touch him!


[ Isn't it enough? ]

{ I couldn't really decide where to go from here after some hours of debate, so if you have an idea to further this or change the situation, I'll happily pick up from the direction you take it in, however big or small it is, sorry ;;-;; }