[ In the end Shinpachi has decided to just keep sitting and wait for her the whole time. As tempting as it is to go look and see what exactly she's up to, sitting here is just more beneficial to both of them. It means he can regain some energy and at the same time make sure that she's safe back there without someone suddenly entering the house.
Not that it doesn't mean he feels a lot better when she walks back in. Being left by himself just makes him think about everything even more - it's not been too long since he threw away his humanity, after all, and even if it would have been a long time then he probably still wouldn't have gotten over it. He did the one thing he swore he'd never do. He can't even say he had no choie since he had plenty of choices, but in the end, he chose her. Over his humanity, over his ideals, over everything important to him.
Why? Because of their promise, sure, but would he have done the same thing if he made a promise with just any random person? Isn't it also just that Chizuru is-- she's important, and to him, she's like..
.. well, he can't put a word to it to himself either, really.
He doesn't have time to think about it any deeper than that anyway, since the girl returns just as he's thinking about her, all smiles. And when she shows the packets, he takes one of them, lifting it with a hand and staring at it like he's scrutinizing it.
Her words, though-- ] It really surpresses it?
[ Sure, they might become less effective over time, but.. whatever, he'll take anything that'll stop him from drinking blood or turning into more of a monster, turning him into everything he never wanted to be. So his smile is entirely genuine as he puts the packet back and looks at her. ]
That's great, Chizuru-chan. I'm indebted to you. [ Because he doesn't see her as indebted to him for what happened, anyway - he doesn't blame anyone but himself.
He's not as optimistic as to fully believe in her words though. It's possible, sure. The ochimizu was also developed to a point where it didn't just make a person lose their mind entirely, he and the other current rasetsu are proof of that, but.. on the other hand, how long did it even take Koudou and Nimii and Sannan to get it to that point? Years and years on end - surely no amount of that medicine is going to make him last all that time.
Not wanting to shoot down her optimism though, his smile doesn't lower - especially since he doesn't figure a thing about her thoughts, instead thinking she must already be pretty satisfied by having done this much. ]
You can keep them with ya for me. After all, I promised I'd take care of you, right? That means you gotta stick by my side anyway. [ It's half meant as a joke (he wouldn't force her to stick with him no matter what, after all) but on the other hand, he doesn't seem to feel even a tiny bit of shame about saying something as embarassing as that, and slowly he gets up and pats the dust off his pants and haori. ]
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Not that it doesn't mean he feels a lot better when she walks back in. Being left by himself just makes him think about everything even more - it's not been too long since he threw away his humanity, after all, and even if it would have been a long time then he probably still wouldn't have gotten over it. He did the one thing he swore he'd never do. He can't even say he had no choie since he had plenty of choices, but in the end, he chose her. Over his humanity, over his ideals, over everything important to him.
Why? Because of their promise, sure, but would he have done the same thing if he made a promise with just any random person? Isn't it also just that Chizuru is-- she's important, and to him, she's like..
.. well, he can't put a word to it to himself either, really.
He doesn't have time to think about it any deeper than that anyway, since the girl returns just as he's thinking about her, all smiles. And when she shows the packets, he takes one of them, lifting it with a hand and staring at it like he's scrutinizing it.
Her words, though-- ] It really surpresses it?
[ Sure, they might become less effective over time, but.. whatever, he'll take anything that'll stop him from drinking blood or turning into more of a monster, turning him into everything he never wanted to be. So his smile is entirely genuine as he puts the packet back and looks at her. ]
That's great, Chizuru-chan. I'm indebted to you. [ Because he doesn't see her as indebted to him for what happened, anyway - he doesn't blame anyone but himself.
He's not as optimistic as to fully believe in her words though. It's possible, sure. The ochimizu was also developed to a point where it didn't just make a person lose their mind entirely, he and the other current rasetsu are proof of that, but.. on the other hand, how long did it even take Koudou and Nimii and Sannan to get it to that point? Years and years on end - surely no amount of that medicine is going to make him last all that time.
Not wanting to shoot down her optimism though, his smile doesn't lower - especially since he doesn't figure a thing about her thoughts, instead thinking she must already be pretty satisfied by having done this much. ]
You can keep them with ya for me. After all, I promised I'd take care of you, right? That means you gotta stick by my side anyway. [ It's half meant as a joke (he wouldn't force her to stick with him no matter what, after all) but on the other hand, he doesn't seem to feel even a tiny bit of shame about saying something as embarassing as that, and slowly he gets up and pats the dust off his pants and haori. ]