[Maybe he should've expected words like those four...maybe he should've seen them coming- given the stuff this guy's been saying all along. Everything about being soulmates, and wanting to be with him all the time, and actually going far enough to cling onto him. But no matter what, he'd never fully prepared himself for it...never really believed it would happen...There was always something holding him back- from when he first met Taiki, to even a few moments ago. Almost like he was holding his breath.
Hearing that someone loves you...it's supposed to be a good thing, isn't it? It's supposed to make you feel happy...No, even more than that. It's beyond just regular happiness...Is that what he should be feeling now...?
But instead, Yomotsu just...just feels like tears might start spilling down his cheeks any second now. It feels like all the guilt and resentment towards his actions start rising up inside of him again- at dangerously high levels that make him feel like he could lose it at any moment. It's just that...no matter how he looks at it, he can't ever believe that he would deserve hearing something like that. Why should he deserve something like that...? Why should Yomotsu...why, after he'd told Taiki to get lost so many times...after he tried to ditch him. After he'd actually almost abandoned him completely...He just...doesn't. There wouldn't be anything that could convince him otherwise.
And yet...Taiki's still decided to say that to him anyway. And Yomotsu knows he'd never be able to tell Taiki he shouldn't love him...not with the way the human is. Even that wouldn't be his right to do, would it...? And even if he'd try...it seems like there's nothing on the earth or otherwise that could dissuade Taiki from this. How did someone like him get a love that strong...that withstanding. All that Yomotsu can really do is...just do his best to try to earn that love. That's his only real hope right now...and it's the best thing that he can do for Taiki too. To be better for him...to work on feeling like he really is someone that's worthy of being loved by Taiki. No matter how hard it'll be.
Before the boy can see tears forming in his eyes again, Yomotsu moves his head- burying his face into the top of his hair, and squeezing his eyes shut. He nuzzles his face against the other- hoping that it'll make it harder for Taiki to notice anything...he just doesn't want him to worry again. He does move his face back a little though after a second...just enough to be able to talk again.
Even starting to talk makes his heart start to beat faster in his chest...and faster again by the second. No matter how he feels right now...he just...he can't not say anything to Taiki in return. He has to answer...he owes him absolutely anything he wants, including his own heart.]
I...ah...
[He sniffs a little, and squeezes his eyes shut tighter- trying to force the tears back...and trying to keep the shakiness out of his own voice.]
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Hearing that someone loves you...it's supposed to be a good thing, isn't it? It's supposed to make you feel happy...No, even more than that. It's beyond just regular happiness...Is that what he should be feeling now...?
But instead, Yomotsu just...just feels like tears might start spilling down his cheeks any second now. It feels like all the guilt and resentment towards his actions start rising up inside of him again- at dangerously high levels that make him feel like he could lose it at any moment. It's just that...no matter how he looks at it, he can't ever believe that he would deserve hearing something like that. Why should he deserve something like that...? Why should Yomotsu...why, after he'd told Taiki to get lost so many times...after he tried to ditch him. After he'd actually almost abandoned him completely...He just...doesn't. There wouldn't be anything that could convince him otherwise.
And yet...Taiki's still decided to say that to him anyway. And Yomotsu knows he'd never be able to tell Taiki he shouldn't love him...not with the way the human is. Even that wouldn't be his right to do, would it...? And even if he'd try...it seems like there's nothing on the earth or otherwise that could dissuade Taiki from this. How did someone like him get a love that strong...that withstanding. All that Yomotsu can really do is...just do his best to try to earn that love. That's his only real hope right now...and it's the best thing that he can do for Taiki too. To be better for him...to work on feeling like he really is someone that's worthy of being loved by Taiki. No matter how hard it'll be.
Before the boy can see tears forming in his eyes again, Yomotsu moves his head- burying his face into the top of his hair, and squeezing his eyes shut. He nuzzles his face against the other- hoping that it'll make it harder for Taiki to notice anything...he just doesn't want him to worry again. He does move his face back a little though after a second...just enough to be able to talk again.
Even starting to talk makes his heart start to beat faster in his chest...and faster again by the second. No matter how he feels right now...he just...he can't not say anything to Taiki in return. He has to answer...he owes him absolutely anything he wants, including his own heart.]
I...ah...
[He sniffs a little, and squeezes his eyes shut tighter- trying to force the tears back...and trying to keep the shakiness out of his own voice.]
I...I l-love you too...