[It's ironic that the first time Yomotsu can admit he's genuinely glad to see Taiki, Taiki doesn't even seem to believe he means it. Well...it's more that he can tell there's something actually upsetting Yomotsu anyway, even after all the times he'd said there was so plainly. Yomotsu doesn't see anything on the boy's face since his eyes are still glued to the ground...and after everything that's happened, he'd never imagine that anything could break through Taiki's bubble of happiness. He'll realize it soon enough though, since it'll be impossible for him to miss.
When Taiki comes crashing into him, he doesn't do anything to stop it...in fact, for half a second in the heat of the moment, he wonders if maybe Taiki is upset with him. Until he's laying on his back with the other boy on top of him, and Taiki's burying his face into his chest and wrapping his arms around him.
And then...Taiki apologizing to him...asking if he did something wrong?
He can't believe this. He just...can't. Now of all times...Taiki's trying to make him feel better.
It doesn't help...Taiki trying to console him right now just makes everything twist up inside of him even more with guilt. Yomotsu knows he doesn't deserve to feel better after what he'd done anyway...But for once, he also doesn't want to make Taiki worry either.
The tears keep falling down his face and he can't stop himself from shaking against Taiki...but there's at least something he can do to make it a little better.
He shuts his eyes...and slowly starts moving his arms- letting them inch around Taiki to hold him closer for the first time. And the second he does, it hits Yomotsu just how cold the other feels too. He sucks in a breath and tries to fight back against the tears- leaning his head down against Taiki's and then gently turning both of them so they're each laying on their sides and facing each other. It'll be easier to keep him warm this way, at least...and he curls up around the boy a little more.]
I know...I know you wont.
[One of his hands slides up Taiki's back, and gently through his hair.]
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When Taiki comes crashing into him, he doesn't do anything to stop it...in fact, for half a second in the heat of the moment, he wonders if maybe Taiki is upset with him. Until he's laying on his back with the other boy on top of him, and Taiki's burying his face into his chest and wrapping his arms around him.
And then...Taiki apologizing to him...asking if he did something wrong?
He can't believe this. He just...can't. Now of all times...Taiki's trying to make him feel better.
It doesn't help...Taiki trying to console him right now just makes everything twist up inside of him even more with guilt. Yomotsu knows he doesn't deserve to feel better after what he'd done anyway...But for once, he also doesn't want to make Taiki worry either.
The tears keep falling down his face and he can't stop himself from shaking against Taiki...but there's at least something he can do to make it a little better.
He shuts his eyes...and slowly starts moving his arms- letting them inch around Taiki to hold him closer for the first time. And the second he does, it hits Yomotsu just how cold the other feels too. He sucks in a breath and tries to fight back against the tears- leaning his head down against Taiki's and then gently turning both of them so they're each laying on their sides and facing each other. It'll be easier to keep him warm this way, at least...and he curls up around the boy a little more.]
I know...I know you wont.
[One of his hands slides up Taiki's back, and gently through his hair.]
And I...won't either.