[Even with Agreas reacting like that, Elijah can still tell he didn't quite drive home how much being an "exception" means to him. It's so much more than just Elijah saying "you're the only alpha I don't hate", it's his way of saying "you're the only alpha I could love". Not even just as an alpha...Agreas is the only person he has ever loved. But whatever strength there is to say those words so plainly...it feels like its thousands of miles away, and like he'd run out of breath and collapse if he actually tried to make it there.
He knew he wouldn't be able to do it well enough...even though reaching out to Agreas seemed to help anyway. But he's still left feeling angry at himself for not being able to convey even a fraction of what he's really been feeling. Realistically, he knows there's still time to say more, especially with what Agreas just said. But the thought of that makes his heart flutter with a surprising sense of anxiousness in his chest. How many times could he afford to get this wrong...? What if he leaves Agreas feeling like he's only "good enough", when that's not even remotely what Elijah's thinking?
Maybe it's something instinctual again...or maybe it's just that now, Agreas is finally holding him in his arms, and everything feels like it's finally right somehow...but as Elijah feels the other's heart racing against him, and feels those kisses against his shoulder, it seems like something inside of him is filling up, then breaking apart. It's not as simple as finally being able to satisfy the instinctive urges he's had before... Instead, it's like a dam has been broken, and everything inside is starting to flood out of him for the first time.
Right now...when Agreas seems to want to protect him with everything he has, Elijah feels more vulnerable than ever. Even more than when he'd woken up earlier. Even more than when he'd first found out he was an omega.
His arms slowly slide up Agreas's back- pressing tightly against him, and clenching his hands into half-fists. He buries his face down against the other's shoulder- knowing that it'd be hard to hide any vulnerability with how he feels right now, and knowing that it might be best not to hide it too.]
You are...You are.
[Not even "you WILL be". His voice is just barely a whisper, but still loud enough for Agreas to hear...and it's filled with more fragile emotion than any tone he's ever taken before.
He presses a small, surprisingly gentle kiss against Agreas's shoulder before squeezing his eyes shut- trying to block out everything except for that warm, comforting embrace around him. It's to mirror the kisses on his own shoulder...just in case the words don't get through again, maybe that still will.
Finally...he sucks in a breath before he manages to force the last few words out.]
I could never have been anyone else's.
[He buries his face down a little bit more, and lowers his voice again- like he doesn't want anyone to ever hear this aside from his alpha.]
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He knew he wouldn't be able to do it well enough...even though reaching out to Agreas seemed to help anyway. But he's still left feeling angry at himself for not being able to convey even a fraction of what he's really been feeling. Realistically, he knows there's still time to say more, especially with what Agreas just said. But the thought of that makes his heart flutter with a surprising sense of anxiousness in his chest. How many times could he afford to get this wrong...? What if he leaves Agreas feeling like he's only "good enough", when that's not even remotely what Elijah's thinking?
Maybe it's something instinctual again...or maybe it's just that now, Agreas is finally holding him in his arms, and everything feels like it's finally right somehow...but as Elijah feels the other's heart racing against him, and feels those kisses against his shoulder, it seems like something inside of him is filling up, then breaking apart. It's not as simple as finally being able to satisfy the instinctive urges he's had before... Instead, it's like a dam has been broken, and everything inside is starting to flood out of him for the first time.
Right now...when Agreas seems to want to protect him with everything he has, Elijah feels more vulnerable than ever. Even more than when he'd woken up earlier. Even more than when he'd first found out he was an omega.
His arms slowly slide up Agreas's back- pressing tightly against him, and clenching his hands into half-fists. He buries his face down against the other's shoulder- knowing that it'd be hard to hide any vulnerability with how he feels right now, and knowing that it might be best not to hide it too.]
You are...You are.
[Not even "you WILL be". His voice is just barely a whisper, but still loud enough for Agreas to hear...and it's filled with more fragile emotion than any tone he's ever taken before.
He presses a small, surprisingly gentle kiss against Agreas's shoulder before squeezing his eyes shut- trying to block out everything except for that warm, comforting embrace around him. It's to mirror the kisses on his own shoulder...just in case the words don't get through again, maybe that still will.
Finally...he sucks in a breath before he manages to force the last few words out.]
I could never have been anyone else's.
[He buries his face down a little bit more, and lowers his voice again- like he doesn't want anyone to ever hear this aside from his alpha.]
I...was already yours.
[Even before last night.]