[ The terrible feeling of dread in the pit of his stomach starts to eb away slightly when he feels Yunyeol's lips and fingers moving across his scars. It's not as if he's got direct confirmation that the other doesn't mind the scars, considering Yunyeol probably couldn't say anything about it anyway with the way he is.. but it really does feel like there's something loving in the touches, something softly affectionate. Jeongmin knows that they really did train Yunyeol well - to a ridiculous point where he really feels sorry for Yunyeol at times and wishes the other could at least speak up about what he feels a little more - but there's no way you can train someone to even ask their touch, right? Would affection be that easy to fake?
Maybe it's since he wants it to be true so badly, but he can't help but slip into the mindset that the other doesn't mind this. That Yunyeol isn't doing this against his own will because Jeongmin owns him and wants him to, but that he doesn't mind doing this with Jeongmin. That he wants Jeongmin to feel good.. that he wants him to be happy. He can't help but think of the times when the pain was almost too bad to bear and there was definitely worry in the other's eyes, in a way that felt too genuine to be faked.
Almost without thinking his hands move up to the other's head, his fingers digging into the other's hair - but there's nothing harsh about it. It isn't even due to lack of strength on Jeongmin's part, it's just that he really would never want to hurt the other. It's just a gentle touch, just his fingers brushing through the other's hair to have even more contact between them, to show Yunyeol that he does really like this. He likes not even just the physical part of this, but also the mental and emotional side.. the signs that Yunyeol really does care, especially when he's saying so sweetly that he's here with him.
It's almost overwhelming. His throat feels a little tight, and for a moment Jeongmin almost feels like he's going to cry like some sort of moron at all of Yunyeol's sweetness that's surrounding him, but he manages to at least hold that much back. Not that it does anything about the expression on his face seeming genuinely happy - and even a little hopeful. It's like he's at the edge of the cliff that is telling Yunyeol he loves him, but he doesn't dare to jump in just yet. But it's so close at Yunyeol's kisses, so close.. ]
You're so good at this.
[ His voice is soft too, but it's almost a little more mumbled, like he feels a bit embarrassed just saying it. Mostly since he left it at a surface level compliment, but there's more meaning behind it. It doesn't have anything to do with how well Yunyeol is trained or anything, it's nothing about the physical skills - it's about what he does to Jeongmin's heart without even realising it. ]
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Maybe it's since he wants it to be true so badly, but he can't help but slip into the mindset that the other doesn't mind this. That Yunyeol isn't doing this against his own will because Jeongmin owns him and wants him to, but that he doesn't mind doing this with Jeongmin. That he wants Jeongmin to feel good.. that he wants him to be happy. He can't help but think of the times when the pain was almost too bad to bear and there was definitely worry in the other's eyes, in a way that felt too genuine to be faked.
Almost without thinking his hands move up to the other's head, his fingers digging into the other's hair - but there's nothing harsh about it. It isn't even due to lack of strength on Jeongmin's part, it's just that he really would never want to hurt the other. It's just a gentle touch, just his fingers brushing through the other's hair to have even more contact between them, to show Yunyeol that he does really like this. He likes not even just the physical part of this, but also the mental and emotional side.. the signs that Yunyeol really does care, especially when he's saying so sweetly that he's here with him.
It's almost overwhelming. His throat feels a little tight, and for a moment Jeongmin almost feels like he's going to cry like some sort of moron at all of Yunyeol's sweetness that's surrounding him, but he manages to at least hold that much back. Not that it does anything about the expression on his face seeming genuinely happy - and even a little hopeful. It's like he's at the edge of the cliff that is telling Yunyeol he loves him, but he doesn't dare to jump in just yet. But it's so close at Yunyeol's kisses, so close.. ]
You're so good at this.
[ His voice is soft too, but it's almost a little more mumbled, like he feels a bit embarrassed just saying it. Mostly since he left it at a surface level compliment, but there's more meaning behind it. It doesn't have anything to do with how well Yunyeol is trained or anything, it's nothing about the physical skills - it's about what he does to Jeongmin's heart without even realising it. ]