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[personal profile] viciouscycles 2015-05-25 07:45 am (UTC)(link)
Look, it's-

[--Is she really still chewing? Is he really going to say this when she's chewing and now staring at him like everything's casual and fine and nothing of interest is going on- has gone on?

He actually waits for her to stop eating, despite having basically shoved the stupid thing into her face just minutes before. And that's all he does- wait, silently, except for the slowly growing scowl that sneaks across his face, the frustration at which is 95% directly entirely at himself. The more he waits, the dumber he looks, the more the tight and agitated feeling in his chest grows. Where did all that fuck-all determination go? Lost because the girl he's avoiding confronting feelings over is chewing.]


I'm tryin' to say that I... Alright, it's really stupid but I'm gonna say- Shit, it's just that- you- God, will you fucking stop?!

[If he had an idea of how to go about saying this (he never did, he'll realize a while from now), it was lost to the wait and the frustration. But he knows he's lost it regardless and is left with nothing but... action, really.

you know what you should do again, arakita? say "fuck it". that worked well last time. completely. go on, do it.

At least he does wait until he sees her completely stop chewing, swallow and look at him before he lets out one half hiss, half strangled noise of pure internal tsundere combustion, and lurches his face suddenly forward across the small space between them to press his lips up against her closed ones in probably the most uncoordinated kiss he's ever given a girl before.

(...the only kiss he's given a girl before, and probably the last- less than half a second into it he realizes that, given how she reacted to the headpat, she's probably going to outright murder him for this. he's fucked up and now he's fucked.)

It'd help if he was thinking more instead of just acting on urge, but at least it's not as forceful as one would expect from him. If anything, it's more of a pushy "see, brain, I can do this" mash of lips rather than an aggressive kiss.

...Then again, once thought comes to his suddenly completely and utterly blank headspace, he's going to be regretting a lot more than the specifics of how he kissed her.]
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[personal profile] viciouscycles 2015-05-28 06:33 pm (UTC)(link)
[Well, he's not dead.

That's really all he could be thankful for in the moment, because inevitably she's going to freak out again, yell, probably sock him in the face with that stupid can and press back into the kiss while not making a single noise.

...Wait. She isn't getting angry or yelling or even pulling away. She's sitting there, and maybe even pushing back a little.

Arakita briefly racks his racing mind for reasons for this- maybe she's scared he'll do something if she doesn't kiss back; It's not like she didn't freak out before and maybe now she's finally become scared of his face like despite never showing it before. Maybe she's making fun of him and this is going to be used as fodder against him. Maybe he's letting himself do some wishful thinking and he's actually kissing an unmoving wall and just making stuff up in his head.

The thought of her actually liking him back, or being at least willing to kiss him back, doesn't come to him just yet. It's him, so why would she. Every other option says that pulling away as soon as possible is his best bet, and so he does just as suddenly as he began the kiss, turning away to hopefully conceal some of the redness in his face. It doesn't work.]


You- Tch, I-I'm not tryin' for anything still, ok? I just-

[He didn't plan to talk (had nothing planned to say) and the fact that he is comes to a surprise to him as well. Having no idea what to say, he cuts the sentence off in a mumble and goes quiet.

A painful pause while obviously fixing his stare at a wall yields no better results. Fuck it. Fuck him. He's dumb.]


...I like you. That's all.
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[personal profile] viciouscycles 2015-05-31 06:10 pm (UTC)(link)
[The thing about waiting for an inevitable rejection is that you tend to take many things as one when they aren't intended to be. If he was coming at this with a completely clear head that was removed from the situation, he'd see her blushing cheeks, the lip touching.

These things would be caught by him more obviously were it not for him falling back on familiar mechanisms to cover up pretty much every emotion he's feeling right now- screw everything, charge straight ahead, don't dance around or mince words.]


Nothing, idiot! I wouldn't say this shit if I didn't mean it, even if they forced me to! And I don't kiss people I don't like, obviously!

[See, saying it outright might be his modus operandi, but that doesn't mean he's left immune to embarrassment- especially once he actually finishes talking and actually looks at her. It leaves him actually quiet for once and he's left staring at her, bright red as she is (albeit with much more of an attempt at a scowl).

fuck, she's cute like this.]
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[personal profile] viciouscycles 2015-06-04 08:29 am (UTC)(link)
[Already he was preparing a lot more of that "idiot" talk, that defensive aggressive front, and he was just opening his big fat mouth when she grabs his shirt and pulls at it. What, she wants to fight now-- oh.

Oh.

It's funny. Despite being kissed- actually kissed, the impossible's happened, he's being kissed by her, holy shit- the first thing that he's made painfully aware of is that Arakita has absolutely no idea what to do with his hands.

They're frozen in the position they were the moment she kissed him back: elbows bent in front of him, fingers splayed and tense, and twitching ever so slightly. What, does he cross his arms? Leave them there? Is it okay to touch her now without inducing another tsun firestorm?

They twitch and move up and down about an inch for a moment or two, somehow making him looks even more stupid in so short of a timeframe. A little too suddenly to be smooth (way too suddenly to be smooth), his hands rise up and place themselves on her shoulders. There, that'll keep them still, at least.

Hands taken care of (sort of), his attention snaps back to the only place it could go. This is probably the only time in his life he wishes he had taken advice from, say, Toudou, or Shinkai, or someone who's probably done this before. He realizes now that Ange made this an actual kiss, not the half-mash of lips he'd pushed onto her moments ago despite how clumsy her execution is, and he doesn't know how to return it well. It doesn't help that his head's running too hot to focus on what his lips are doing. He's not smooth, he's not the kind of guy that would know how to kiss well, and he's already fucked up a lot of this.

...But he'll try, dammit, because even if this is completely new territory for him he won't stay frozen like a coward. He doesn't relax (his heart's pounding to his ears and he's sure she can hear it, goddamnit) and his hands are pretty much glued to his shoulders at this point, but he tilts his head slightly and pushes more into the kiss... mostly on instinct to what he thinks will show that he's definitely returning it.

(She tastes like those too-sweet peaches, he realizes, but he really doesn't mind that now).]
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[personal profile] viciouscycles 2015-06-08 09:13 am (UTC)(link)
[He feels her pull away after what feels like a very, very long time and he responds in turn by taking his hands off her very, very quickly before he can even blink at her, somehow making sure to not-- slide them down her arms, like he's that romantic or anything.

When he does blink, however, it lasts for longer than expected, thanks to what she says.]


--You do?

[Or, "don't", but the meaning of it gets through, at least.

The expression he makes puts the "dumb" in "dumbfounded"- it's probably the most stricken he's looked since the last time someone (indirectly, and to a platonic degree, mind you) told him they liked him, and exactly the same thought came to him.

She likes... him?

...That's what that double negative, that tucking of her hair behind her ear (he has an impulse to want to do that to her himself, dammit, what a lame thought) means, right? It's a stupid question, he knows that after what just happened, but his reflexive shock stands. He was so focused on what to do that he didn't consider her feelings about it, idiotically enough, and now they're right in front of his big fat face.

(she likes him)]
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[personal profile] viciouscycles 2015-06-08 09:13 am (UTC)(link)
...I mean, I got that, alright. You don't hafta say anymore.

[She doesn't, because he gets it, and he doesn't want to, because every second that passes is another second that he's still obviously and painfully mortified and awkward and more nervous than he'd like to ever admit and even more happy than that. This time, when he's scratching at his head and looking away, it's to hide both his red cheeks and a dumb smile threatening to break across his face.

Mumbled, because his lips need to be occupied without showing that smile he knows will be ugly. Kissing again sounds like a better idea, he did like that..]


'm glad.
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[personal profile] viciouscycles 2015-06-12 09:42 am (UTC)(link)
H-hey!

[He's happy, happier than he's been in a long, long time here, but the instinctual reaction to her giggles, small as they may be, is that they're directed at him mockingly.

But then he actually looks at her face, and that anxiety fades away instantly. She's smiling, actually smiling about their mutual confession. If he was dumbstruck before, now he's completely fixated on watching her with that same red, befuddled expression.

(She's so cute, how the hell is a usual stiff-face like her so goddamn cute when she smiles.)

It's weird- even if they were sitting behind the gym after skipping class on a normal fall day, he'd still feel like he shouldn't be the one seeing this or hearing this from a cute girl. Or any girl, for that matter. Here, where even the inside of this dingy apartment is half destroyed in comparison to the world outside, it's just straight up bizarre that they're talking about liking each other... and feeling this happy about it.

He knows it's a stupid idea objectively, when everything could be overturned the very next day and who the hell knows what'll happen by next month, but goddamn if he doesn't feel actually and truly happy for the first time since arriving here.

After admiring staring at her for longer than he should, he finally regains some ability to speak.]


...It's dumb, 'cause nothing's normal here and we could be sent back anytime, but are you-

[He can already feel how lame he's going to sound saying this, but damn him if he doesn't have any experience or knowledge on how to proceed after recognition of mutual Feelings.]

You're sayin' you want to be-- Tch, you know, together, right?

[Yep. Lame. But what else to call it when "dating" sounds so foreign and strange here?]
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[personal profile] viciouscycles 2015-06-19 09:51 am (UTC)(link)
[It isn't a rejection, he can at least see that through anticipatory nervousness for a response keeping his sight in tunnel-vision. Even better, it's in the form of language he's used to hearing- it's in the form of a challenge.]

Of course I can handle it! I'm used to usual stiff-faces like you-- It ain't a challenge.

[...But that's not the entire truth, is it. Dealing with a stone wall, yes, but romancing it instead, especially when it's not so stone-like when he's actually doing the romancing? No, not really, and he's not a liar that's going to claim he can.

(especially when he gets embarrassed that easily.)

There's more to this, so he's not going to end it there. Maybe she was teasing, but he'll get it entirely clear.]


And so what if you're some kinda "witch"? You've- You've never done anything stupid or tried to curse me with magic powers. I'm not going to start believe that you're evil because of some fairy-tale shit.

["I trust you. Completely."]

...Tch. I'm not some stupid prince, but I'll stick by you, even if [when] things get goddamn terrible.

[It's probably stupid, telling the girl with unfathomable powers (to him) that he'll protect her or anything lame like that, but... he wouldn't be content hanging in the background when push came to shove either.

(he'd make a pretty lame prince anyway)]
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[personal profile] viciouscycles 2015-06-22 05:53 am (UTC)(link)
Who's embarras-

[He is, he is absolutely embarrassing in how transparent all the aggressiveness in his words clearly is to what he actually means and feels. For once, Arakita's tired is stopped, and by something so simple (and pleasing, he realizes) as being kissed.

Funny how kissing a teenage boy who is quite eager to do so to stop saying stupid shit suddenly directs his attention away from his stupid rambling and his stupid, embarrassing feelings. He's getting better at this- or more realistically, braver, since focusing on enjoying it rather than running through the 15 scenarios about how she hates it and how he should get the fuck out of here you idiot, you have no idea what you're doing. Her shoulders seemed to be a good place for his hands to be last time, so they return there with more certainty than before, and he's not hesitant in tilting his head and pressing back with firm pressure behind it. He knows it probably isn't good, but it does feel better. More like how he's told a kiss should feel.

Still, there's a bit of a problem in paradise and it's enough for him to reluctantly pull away for a moment, cheeks flushed and eyes immediately diverting.]


...Oi, these are in the way. [His hand plants itself on the arm rests in between their two chairs. They've been bumping into his stomach as he's been leaning over to kiss her, not to mention putting up sort of a barrier between them. You know what-- fuck barriers, it's his practical motto to overcome them. His eyes flick over (rather obviously) to the couch across the room.]

Your roommates ain't home, are they?

[It'll be harder to explain away sitting very close together on a couch instead of on separate chairs if they were to, say, be walked in on after frantically trying to make it look like they weren't just kissing as soon as they heard someone open the door, he means.

This explanation is probably not the intent imagined behind that question and that gesture towards the couch by anyone else seeing it.

Easy there, boy. Down. Stay. You're still pretty lame, don't forget it.]
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[personal profile] viciouscycles 2015-06-26 06:42 pm (UTC)(link)
[She really doesn't get it. When you're this close (really, really close, their noses are touching oh god is that lame), it's easy to see the innocent, confused look on her face, like she has no idea why they would want to move.

...Did she really like it that much as it was, to not think about it? Is he doing something right?]


You know, cause- You really want someone walking in right now?

[Goddamnit, that innocent look is really distracting. Damn you, Ange. Damn you, because you're making it harder to consider moving/stopping.]

...Couch. You wanna move? [To make things confusing (he has to, you know), he plants another quick kiss on her.] 's less of a pain. [And another.]

[Aaaaand another.]

[For someone who supposedly wants to move, his hands have nicely (and unconsciously on his part, he's finally relaxed enough to not think so much about some things) on her upper waist.

...Ok, it is a little uncomfortable, doing that across two arm rests.]]
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[personal profile] viciouscycles 2015-07-02 09:40 am (UTC)(link)
[Finally, he's relaxed enough where hands being placed on his own doesn't make him jump slightly or question if they're there to remove his from her waist. Too bad it comes now, because it makes him reconsider moving now ever so slightly.]

What if I don't wanna?

[Give her a moment, that is, and he's proving it by pressing another kiss on her. It lingers just a second too long and too firmly to be considered as brief as the others. It's a kiss that would fit better on the couch, when they're much closer and not trying to pause in order to move elsewhere.

...Still, given that he's the one who asked to move first, though, and all tsundere obligatory stubbornness aside he probably should give her that moment. As soon as his hands slip off her (already feeling the lack of warmth quickly), he's once again back to square one when it comes to Doing This Right.

Looking from her, to the couch, to her again, he considers- should he just stand up and beeline over there as quickly as possible, wait for her, or what?

...

He's suddenly facing away again, hand awkwardly and tentatively placing itself on the arm rests between them, and waiting for her to move before he does.]


...C'mon.
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[personal profile] viciouscycles 2015-07-03 09:19 am (UTC)(link)
[...Fuck, that's hot.

She's nervous, her heart's probably beating about as fast as his is (he's always had a good sense for smelling out when people's nervousness is because of him), and for a moment he was reconsidering everything because of the look on her face- wide-eyed and frozen like that.

Bu then she's grabbing him by the shirt as he stands up and holding her face close-- very close, but far enough so that when Arakita jerks his head forward to kiss her again, he doesn't quite reach. She's pushing back, meeting where he stands and even challenging him, and he likes it. He likes being dragged around by his collar because it means that she's willing to play the push-and-pull games he always sets up for any interactions he has with people.

The look on her face, flushed as it may be, is one that inspires an actual grin to slide across his own face as he gets pulled to the couch... it being just as red, but. details.]


Ah? Who said you're callin' all the shots here?

[The way he falls on the couch is anything but graceful, his gaze and grin are far too eager to be anything but. He still hasn't shaken the nervous energy, rapid heart rate and full-body blush, but is he ever actually excited for this without thoughts of "I'm going to totally fuck this up" completely weighing him down. They're still there, but dammit, they're not completely.

Still, for all his bluster, loudness and belligerence, he can't bring himself to be necessarily rough with her. That doesn't mean he wastes any time placing his hands and lips where they were before they got off the couch as soon as she sits down (did you want to get a word in? too bad) and nor are they any less firmly placed for the time lost. However, the change in scenery and the sudden and deep appreciation for how much closer she is, plus the thought of "shit, can I actually try this now?" crossing his mind, means that he's willing to be even braver. With little warning besides his hands clenching slightly around her waist, he drags his lips across her face and down her neck in a series of quick and stumbling kisses.

Given how quickly he pulls his face back up to return to proper kissing it was clearly experimental. At least he finally isn't going to knock himself for trying. He's gotten that comfortable.]
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[personal profile] viciouscycles 2015-07-04 08:06 am (UTC)(link)
[Even if Arakita didn't naturally pick up on body language, the way her breath hitches like that and the tensing of her muscles beneath her skin tells him everything he wanted to know. Before, the cloud of nervousness hanging over him was blocking instinct, and the possibility of Completely Fucking This Up seemed to be trailing behind every motion he made.

But she liked it, even if it wasn't smooth or graceful. She actually likes this- all of this. He's doing this right on both counts, because this, the kissing and that hand in his hair, feels really good- really, really good. So this is kissing, this is being actually close to the person you like, feeling them under your hands and making out with them until you're senseless without giving a damn about who could be seeing you right now.

It's not the full floodgates that are opening now, but Arakita definitely lets his gut instinct back into it's rightful place of dictating what he does here. He doesn't hold back a quiet, pleased murmur in between kisses when he feels fingers pushing apart his hair... nor is the catch in his breath hidden in the slightest when that same hand tightens its grip around the strands.

...Shit, does this feeling have him thinking weird shit, his gut telling him to push forward into those impulsive thoughts. She's digging fingers into his hair with the intent to pull and he realizes that he doesn't mind the idea of it at all, as the thought of it crosses his racing mind briefly. It's both a leash for those impulsive desires and a signal for him to make his move in this embarrassed competition they have going here. Contradictory, but he'll roll with it. He likes it that way; it's true to his nature.

Hands just resting around her waist suddenly aren't enough now. Instead, they wrap around her body to pull her close to him- the distance between their chests is reduced from inches to more or less pressing together. Without missing a beat while fully being aware that maybe taking two steps ahead is pushing it, he tilts his head and opens his mouth into the kiss to deepen it in what he's heard (and, well, seen, a lot of what he's doing is from what he's seen) feels even better than keeping their kiss on the surface.

...It immediately works for him, at least.]

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