[ It's not really what Haku expected. He expected more flailing and struggling against him, Eiri shoving him off - if not just plainly off the bed, if he has the strength for it already. He expected protests and yelling and the usual Eiri behaviour, not..
.. well, this. This kind of acceptance that he doesn't easily get from Eiri since it's just not what Eiri is like and it's just what Haku makes hard to get through his own dumb actions. But yet it's still happening. Eiri doesn't try to push him away, instead he's actually moving his lips against Haku's in return. He's accepting Haku and Haku's sentiment, and Eiri's own is easy to feel in return in the kiss.
That he knows, that he understands, that he feels the same in his own way.
The surprise of it leaves Haku breathless for a moment, even if he doesn't pull away from Eiri's mouth. He doesn't want to break the contact, not right now. Haku just lingers there, feeling the sensation of Eiri's lips and moving along with it, although he's not quite pushing it harder and forward as much as he usually does with his actions.
It's since.. this is different. Maybe if they'd repeat it later he will get more used to it and act more like usually, but this is the first time he's felt this comfortable and accepted in.. well, has he ever felt like this ever since he lost his brother that one day? He can't say he actually liked the many years at Sakura all that much, and by the end he was more of a robot or a ghost than human, hardly even living, pushing everything away while enduring the curse of being the jinx. He kept his distance, and other people kept their distance in turn.
But it's not what Eiri is doing right now. He's kissing him back, he's putting his hands on his shoulders, holding onto him. Eiri pulled through for him in surviving getting shot, and now he's only just out of the infirmary he's pulling through for Haku again already. It's nice and comfortable, and for once all the heavier thoughts about his brother or his previous Messiah all disappear from his thoughts. He doesn't want to think about them - all he wants to think about in this moment is Eiri.
It's exactly what makes him more gentle and careful in his movements. Being shameless in the past, although it comes naturally to him, had been easy. He never had anything to lose, since he was going to lose everything anyway. It didn't matter.
Right now? Right now, he has everything to lose. Haku is usually just fine with dealing with Eiri's tsunball behaviour, but right now he's feeling a little too vulnerable by the sudden but long due relief and comfort coming over him to be shoved away like that again.
So he moves his hand up to Eiri's hand, and then slowly into Eiri's hair as they still kiss.. but it's oddly careful by Haku standards. Like he's exploring, trying to see what he can and can't do for once rather than just going for it and not caring if Eiri reacts badly to it.
It's almost a little embarrassing, honestly.. but Eiri has already seen him at his worst, anyway. ]
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.. well, this. This kind of acceptance that he doesn't easily get from Eiri since it's just not what Eiri is like and it's just what Haku makes hard to get through his own dumb actions. But yet it's still happening. Eiri doesn't try to push him away, instead he's actually moving his lips against Haku's in return. He's accepting Haku and Haku's sentiment, and Eiri's own is easy to feel in return in the kiss.
That he knows, that he understands, that he feels the same in his own way.
The surprise of it leaves Haku breathless for a moment, even if he doesn't pull away from Eiri's mouth. He doesn't want to break the contact, not right now. Haku just lingers there, feeling the sensation of Eiri's lips and moving along with it, although he's not quite pushing it harder and forward as much as he usually does with his actions.
It's since.. this is different. Maybe if they'd repeat it later he will get more used to it and act more like usually, but this is the first time he's felt this comfortable and accepted in.. well, has he ever felt like this ever since he lost his brother that one day? He can't say he actually liked the many years at Sakura all that much, and by the end he was more of a robot or a ghost than human, hardly even living, pushing everything away while enduring the curse of being the jinx. He kept his distance, and other people kept their distance in turn.
But it's not what Eiri is doing right now. He's kissing him back, he's putting his hands on his shoulders, holding onto him. Eiri pulled through for him in surviving getting shot, and now he's only just out of the infirmary he's pulling through for Haku again already. It's nice and comfortable, and for once all the heavier thoughts about his brother or his previous Messiah all disappear from his thoughts. He doesn't want to think about them - all he wants to think about in this moment is Eiri.
It's exactly what makes him more gentle and careful in his movements. Being shameless in the past, although it comes naturally to him, had been easy. He never had anything to lose, since he was going to lose everything anyway. It didn't matter.
Right now? Right now, he has everything to lose. Haku is usually just fine with dealing with Eiri's tsunball behaviour, but right now he's feeling a little too vulnerable by the sudden but long due relief and comfort coming over him to be shoved away like that again.
So he moves his hand up to Eiri's hand, and then slowly into Eiri's hair as they still kiss.. but it's oddly careful by Haku standards. Like he's exploring, trying to see what he can and can't do for once rather than just going for it and not caring if Eiri reacts badly to it.
It's almost a little embarrassing, honestly.. but Eiri has already seen him at his worst, anyway. ]