[ In a way he's getting rest already, really. Although it probably can't be qualified as true rest - being up during the day drains a rasetsu's energy no matter what, after all - but at least it means he's not using up a whole lot more energy if he's just sitting here, watching her go at it in the kitchen, smelling the food she's made--
It's only then that it hits him just how.. strange all of this is. It's been rare for him to ever catch a moment alone with Chizuru before everything at Toba Fushimi went down. Either because he was too busy hanging with the other two third of the idiot trio, or she was doing chores, or-- well, there were just always so many men around the headquarters that it was rare for it to be the two of them like this. It's been like this a little more often since he turned into a rasetsu, since she would constantly check up on him in small ways even during the boat ride, but.. here he's sitting in her house as she's cooking him food. He's already tasted her food before, sure, but it was food she helped make for the entire Shinsengumi.
Never has it been just her making food for him.
And it makes this situation feel.. different. Special? Weird? He's not sure what label to put on it. It just makes him feel strange, like there's something bubbling in his stomach. Like this it's almost as if they aren't with the Shinsengumi, as if she isn't a demon and he isn't a rasetsu - it's almost a scene you'd expect a married couple to be in or something like that, with the wife cooking for her husband as they sit together in their home.
And even though they're not like that at all, the thought itself still definitely manages to fluster Shinpachi, making his cheeks a little red. Especially when Chizuru walks in with the food and all he can do is stare at her - as if this is the first time he's ever even thought of the possibility that she could be more than just someone generally important, like a little sister, or a friend, or anything like that.
It seems dumb to only realise it now, but since she was just with the guys so much, he started to view her like he views everyone else. Like an important friend - one that needs to be protected a little more than his usual friends, sure, but never as a woman like he looked at the women they saw when they went out drinking.
The realisation renders him silent for a moment or two, his face still red, but then he shakes his head, trying to snap himself out of it. ]
Uh-- y.. yeah, thanks. It looks amazing..
[ It's so weird. Even if Chizuru's a woman, she's still Chizuru-chan, right? Even if they're eating here together like this, it doesn't change anything. He already gave up one of his most important principles so she'd be safe, she already made him drink her blood for his own safety. If she was still Chizuru-chan after that, she's still just Chizuru-chan now.
.. Yeah.
He tries to shove the thought to the back of his mind for now, and that renders him able to smile again, picking up his cup and taking a sip from it. ]
In fact, it probably tastes even better! [ Picking up the chopsticks, he lightly pokes her with them. ] Let's dig in, I could eat a horse right about now..!
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It's only then that it hits him just how.. strange all of this is. It's been rare for him to ever catch a moment alone with Chizuru before everything at Toba Fushimi went down. Either because he was too busy hanging with the other two third of the idiot trio, or she was doing chores, or-- well, there were just always so many men around the headquarters that it was rare for it to be the two of them like this. It's been like this a little more often since he turned into a rasetsu, since she would constantly check up on him in small ways even during the boat ride, but.. here he's sitting in her house as she's cooking him food. He's already tasted her food before, sure, but it was food she helped make for the entire Shinsengumi.
Never has it been just her making food for him.
And it makes this situation feel.. different. Special? Weird? He's not sure what label to put on it. It just makes him feel strange, like there's something bubbling in his stomach. Like this it's almost as if they aren't with the Shinsengumi, as if she isn't a demon and he isn't a rasetsu - it's almost a scene you'd expect a married couple to be in or something like that, with the wife cooking for her husband as they sit together in their home.
And even though they're not like that at all, the thought itself still definitely manages to fluster Shinpachi, making his cheeks a little red. Especially when Chizuru walks in with the food and all he can do is stare at her - as if this is the first time he's ever even thought of the possibility that she could be more than just someone generally important, like a little sister, or a friend, or anything like that.
It seems dumb to only realise it now, but since she was just with the guys so much, he started to view her like he views everyone else. Like an important friend - one that needs to be protected a little more than his usual friends, sure, but never as a woman like he looked at the women they saw when they went out drinking.
The realisation renders him silent for a moment or two, his face still red, but then he shakes his head, trying to snap himself out of it. ]
Uh-- y.. yeah, thanks. It looks amazing..
[ It's so weird. Even if Chizuru's a woman, she's still Chizuru-chan, right? Even if they're eating here together like this, it doesn't change anything. He already gave up one of his most important principles so she'd be safe, she already made him drink her blood for his own safety. If she was still Chizuru-chan after that, she's still just Chizuru-chan now.
.. Yeah.
He tries to shove the thought to the back of his mind for now, and that renders him able to smile again, picking up his cup and taking a sip from it. ]
In fact, it probably tastes even better! [ Picking up the chopsticks, he lightly pokes her with them. ] Let's dig in, I could eat a horse right about now..!