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[ His eyes are closed for a moment as he leans his head backwards against the hard and rough wall of the slightly run down bathroom building of the gas station they stopped at for the time being. Sweat trinkles down the side of his head with how hot it is out here in the middle of the desert, but Josuke can't even bring himself to pay any attention to it. Instead he just stands there with his eyes closed, almost a little troubled, as he counts his heartbeats. One, two, three, four. Although it used to make him a little more calm whenever he felt like he might have flipped out otherwise in the past, nowadays they only remind him of the fact that time is ticking away every single moment. Every single second brings them a second closer to the moment Minako's time is destined to stop. And it's only by now that he's found time is like sand - the more he tries to hold onto each and every precious moment, the more they all seem to slip away from him until it's already too late.

Not that he doesn't try his hardest all the same for both their sakes. And it's not that he doesn't enjoy every moment with her, because by god he does, of course he does, but at the same time he feels so hurt and scared when he thinks of the fact that she's going to slip away from him and everything else, and there's nothing he can do to stop it. He can't protect her. Even though he would've done anything.

Josuke has been trying his best though to not let Minako on to his mood. It's only now she's using the bathroom and he's waiting outside for her by himself that he can let his troubles overcome him for just a moment, only when she can't notice. She's the one who's suffering. He can't be the one to have a hard time here, she needs him, she should be able to be at least as happy as she can be and do whatever she wants to do, so he has to force himself to be strong as always. Dependable like a rock.

Isn't that what he always does?

It's why when he hears the sound of a toilet being flushed and then water pouring into a sink that he quickly straightens up, opening his eyes and taking in a deep breath. Come on, dude, man up-- you've faced worse than this, right? (Except it's never really been worse than this.) ]

Yo, Minako, if you're gonna take any longer in there then I'm just gonna assume you flushed yourself down too! [ At least he manages a joke, speaking up loudly so she can hear him even inside there - he doesn't care if anyone else hears, honestly. ]

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Just a minute, just a minute! I'll let you know if I actually flush myself down, don't worry! [Her voice carries back through the bathroom easily, even as she laughs. It's the same laugh as always, bright and sunny, like she's telling a joke too. Not that she didn't think it was funny of course, but even though she knows she hasn't taken that long at all, she takes a few more moments longer than necessary, bracing her hands against the sink as she looks into the mirror.

How long has it been? What day was it now? She both wanted desperately to forget the days and dates but also keep track of them like her life depended on it, a prayer to no one that she didn't want answered. No matter what the date was, March 5th always seemed like it was coming too quickly and so far off. Minako didn't like to think about it, not when she was having so much fun just spending time with Josuke like this, but it was also impossible not to think about. She knew she was running on borrowed time (again) but it's not like she knew March 5th would be the definite end either. There were too many unknowns, too many possibilities, and she sighed as she let go of the sink.

It was just like before when she first thought of this, and still she had no answers. She probably wouldn't get any. Slapping her cheeks, she whispers to her reflection.]

Come on, enough of that! Smile already, smile! [If she didn't, then who would? Despite his attempts not to show it, it was funny how things worked out when you loved someone; Minako could tell he wasn't always at his 100% best during this. She wants to tell him he doesn't have to, that it's fine to be sad too, but that means bringing the topic of her death for the millionth time it feels like. Even once more feels like too much.

With a cheery smile, she finally steps out of the bathroom, looking at Josuke curiously.]

There, I'm out! Now where next are we off to, captain?

[ God, it's so strange. She's standing there and it's Minako, it's Minako like always, except her looks fully of energy and life always lack that tiny extra bit she always had, like there's something missing now that had been there before. Something that can't just be recovered easily -- something lost forever.

But he can't linger on it. He stares at her for a moment longer than he should have, maybe, but he's quick to drape his arm over her shoulders instead, holding her close to him like that. As long as he can still feel the shape of her body and the warmth of it through a touch, she's here and safe with him. Like just maybe he can somehow protect her from the world and fate just by holding her loosely. ]

There's a nice camping spot out there in the desert just calling our names, that's what we're headed for! [ Complete with over the top gestures with his free arm, like he's really pretending to be a captain to play along with it. ] Might be nice to have some time with just the two of us and no one else around, yeah?

[ As he's talking he's already guiding her back over to the motorcycle. ]

[She makes sure that nothing changes in her expression at what he says, but on the inside she's a little relieved to hear him say that they'll be stopping soon. It's not like they've even done a whole lot, yet somehow she's already so tired. Not only does it annoy her, becoming exhausted so quickly when she used to be full of energy, it worries her too. How is she supposed to spend as much time as she can doing things if she's always getting worn out?

With Josuke's arm around her so comfortably though, she doesn't want to think about any of that. Maybe later, but for now she walks with him back to the motorcycle and gives a loose salute with her hand.]

Aye, aye, sir! I can't say I've ever gone camping before, but it sounds fun already.

Don't worry 'bout it, I did it before back home with Okuyasu one time. I'm practically an expert!

[ Even though there were about a dozen of bee stings and a broken wrist involved in all of it, but nothing Crazy Diamond couldn't fix for the other guy.. And it's not like there could be an exact repeat of that out here in the desert of all places. Josuke intends to fully watch over Minako during any of this - if she's weakening and becoming more tired over time, then like hell he's going to let her get anymore hurt during it.

It's why he just (gently) picks her up once they're next to the motorcycle before plopping her down on the back seat again. ]

All you gotta do is provide us with some cheer, got it? [ Because he has to keep her cheerful somehow. Even if at times his heart feels like it's going to be ripped apart at the very thought that maybe he won't be able to see her smile again in due time, he wants to make her as happy as he can, at least. ]

[You'd think she'd be used to it after being picked up so many times before, but apparently not. Minako's momentarily surprised by it, but after a moment it fades into a smile, and she flashes a peace sign at Josuke once he puts her on the backseat.]

That all? Providing some cheer is way too easy for me! [Her smile is bright and sincere; you'd never think that the idea of never being able to do something as simple as smile in time was on the back of her mind.] I think I can handle a little more responsibility.

Hey, hey, we're evenly dividing this here! I watch the road, you watch the smiles. [ It sounds sappy as hell and makes no sense, but that's literally Jojo talk for you, right.. besides, he manages to say it rather happily before planting a kiss on her forehead.

After that he moves to sit onto the motorcycle himself though - without a helmet since SCREW THE POLICE and how are you going to fit his hair in one of those either way - and once he's sure Minako's holding onto him, he drives off on it. At least the spot he had in mind shouldn't be too far from here and they brought some stuff along with them for the camping part, so.. that part should at least happen perfectly. Or so he hopes, at least. As long as Minako's like this, as long as her life might be ticking away, he wants to be able to make everything perfect for her and give her a chance to still experience everything.

In a weird combination between excitement and anxiety he drives a little faster on the road. There's no one else around either way on this desolate road. ]

[Minako has her arms wrapped tightly around Josuke, and as they speed off, there's going to be no problem with watching the smiles from her end. Getting to ride on a motorcycle is always exciting okay!! She's not from P4 Golden she doesn't get to ride one... She leans her head against his back though, listening closely to hear his heartbeat even over the roar of the engine. As they speed up, she laughs.]

Don't go too fast now, okay?! [She practically has to shout it to make sure she can be heard, but despite that it's not said like a reprimand in the least.]

You think this is fast already?! You ain't seen nothing yet!

[ Of course there's no way he's going to drive irresponsibly though while having Minako with him like this.. well, not too irresponsibly, there's some kind of weird natural recklessness in it that he can't really help either since it's just part of what he's like. But at least he knows he can't let anything happen to her now-- but a little playful riding can't hurt, right? It's why he turns up the speed even a little more, letting out a loud and lively laugh as the scenery whips past them. Her grip on him is a reminder of the fact that she's here, that they're together, and that now more than ever they have to enjoy life every single moment they can.

His laughter becomes louder until it practically shakes his body just a little bit, enough for her to most likely feel. ]

Everyone make way, highway royals coming through!

[yeah josuke don't get her killed even earlier than she's supposed to die I MEAN--

When they speed up, Minako lets out a small yelp despite trying not to. It's always a little scary to be honest, but that's part of what makes it so exciting, so thrilling. Even was weary as she is these days, riding on the motorcycle makes her feel like she's truly alive, and it's hard not to feel anything else when she's with Josuke. Feeling the rumble of his laughter through his back, she can't help but laugh too.]

Who are you even talking to, it's just us on the road! [With how there's not a soul to be seen for miles, it really does feel like it's just them two in the world. It's a selfish thought and she knows it, but for just a little she thinks that that's all she wants. A world with just the two of them.]

I'm making sure they can hear it even from miles away!

[ Like he's announcing their arrival to the world or something. Besides, actually shouting loudly is pretty good for him at the moment since it helps him destress and at the same time it cheers him up and eggs him on too, making everything a lot easier to bear. He can scream at the world that they're here and that it's going to stay that way for as long as he can manage to drag her on. They're here together-- do you hear that, world? They're not going to give up this soon. Or at least, he isn't, and he's pretty sure she isn't going to do it easily either. ]

That's why there's no one there, they're all turning around the moment they hear it!

I'd feel kinda bad if you're scaring everyone off! [But not really, and she laughs into Josuke's back despite herself. If it were up to her, they'd go on like this now and forever, always together. Even like this though, despite how much fun she's having just being together with Josuke, she know it's an impossible wish. She clings just a bit tighter, still smiling against his back but thoughts a little distant now.]

[ He laughs, obviously just meaning it in a good-natured way even when he says-- ]

Deal with it, the highway's ours now! Just ours!

[ But it's hard to miss the way she clings against his back tighter, like she's leaning against it more, and with the way she's been lately it immediately sets off alarm bells in Josuke's mind. Sure, he doesn't want to be overbearing, but he at least has to make sure.. when he speaks up again, his voice is a lot softer. ] .. Hey, don't fall asleep though. We still have the whole day to go.

[At this rate, she can't even get five minutes to think to herself. Not that she's actually complaining though, and to be honest it's probably better that way. She's had more than enough time to think on all this by herself. Sitting up a little straighter, while still holding on obviously, Minako leans forward a bit so she's right by Josuke's ear. It's better than shouting the entire time after all, so her voice becomes softer as well.]

Jeez, don't worry about that. I'm not planning on sleeping for a while!

I'm not worried!

[ Yeah, of course you aren't, Josuke.. especially with your tone there, that's totally convincing. Of course he's worried. He's never stopped worrying for a single moment ever since he learned the truth, even though he manages to at least push it down sometimes to let go and have some fun with her. She deserves it now more than ever. ]

I'm just... [ That totally isn't a pause to make up an excuse. At least he can pretend it's since he's focusing on the road for a moment. ] .. lookin' out for you.

[Ah yes that was so very smooth of you Josuke... Minako rolls her eyes, albeit fondly, and if they were talking face to face she'd do something like flick his forehead if she could reach. Sitting right behind him takes care of the height problem, instead she flicks the back of his neck.]

You're doing plenty of looking out for me already, alright? Relax a little.

Ouch! [ It's not like it hurts a whole lot, but maybe it's since it came out of nowhere or he's just exaggerating for comedic effect.. but even so, he does wince a little at the flick. Honestly, he's not too surprised Minako can tell that he's worried about her since he's not exactly really hiding it well, but even so..

He doesn't exactly want to promise to not worry since he knows he can't live up to that. So instead he tries to change the subject. ]

.. Oh, look! We're already here, this is where we're gonna camp out! [ He hits the brakes of the motorcycle until it's fully stopped on the side of the road. ]

Oh wow, it looks great! [Even though it's mostly just desert... Like everything here... But the area's mostly clear of plants and whatnot too, and not even mountains black the view of the sky. She's already hopping off the motorcycle to get their gear.] Come on, let's start setting up!

[ Hey, it might be desert, but it's a slightly better piece of desert than the rest, that's what makes it work..!! But Josuke is already on it (since he's at least determined to do most of the work if he can help it while Minako's like this) so he is grabbing the tent and most of the heavy stuff out of the motorcycle's baggage compartment, shifting it a little so he can all hold it at once. ]

You can get the rest of the stuff, right? We'll just dump it a little bit away from the road so we won't get woken up by cars or whatever.

Okay, give me just a sec! [Minako gets the rest of the supplies, and it's easier to follow him since her bundle is nowhere near as big. She half-wants to take some of his own bundle so he isn't carrying as much, but she knows he'd just get all stubborn about carrying it himself so that she wouldn't have to.] Hey, we're not going to just dump it though, right? I'm no camping expert, but I think it'd be safer to actually set things up.

[She's just teasing though.]

Smartass!

[ It's a joking comment more than him actually being angry though and it's very easy to even just tell that from his tone as he says it. He knows Minako's just teasing about the way he words things as simply as possible.. but it's true that is pretty much literally dumping the stuff on the floor the moment he reaches a good spot, turning around to see if she's managing at least. ]

Like hell we're gonna sleep out in the open, we at least need a tent! My clothes're gonna be ruined if we just sleep on all this sand and dirt! [ Granted, Josuke's priorities are always sort.. of.. bad.. but at least this time he's exaggerating it as a joke. ]

[She is totally managing okay gosh!! No really, she is though, holding all the camping gear and whatnot she has just fine. It looks like her actual strength is fine at least... Although she's glad that she's not going to have to walk too far with this stuff, but that's something she keeps to herself.]

Honestly, you and your clothes. [She shakes her head, exasperated but fond.] Maybe you just need to hit it rich so you don't worry about them at all again.

[ Once he notices she's doing okay, he turns back to the pile of stuff to try and fish the tent's frame out of it so he can set it up before she has time to butt in about how she should help.. trying to be subtle here, okay. ]

Well, I did almost win the lottery once. [ Except it didn't go as well as planned.. ] Though I guess I shouldn't keep hopin' it'll just happen twice in a row, huh? Maybe I should find some job that pays really well..

[Wow she sees you trying to be subtle she sees you. Don't think she'll let him go on for too long before she wants to help too!!]

Hey, you never know, right? If you were actually lucky enough to almost win once, who's to say you're not lucky enough for it to happen twice? [Minako that is the exact kind of logic that makes people go broke at casinos.]

[ DO YOU WANT HIM TO BECOME A BROKE HOBO AFTER YOU DIE, MINAKO, IS THAT IT... but for now he just laughs at it. ]

Maybe. [ Not that he likes thinking about the future a whole lot anymore, not since they discovered what's going to happen to Minako most likely sooner or later. So the answer comes a little wryly and he shrugs, not directly looking at her but instead still working on the tent over here. At least it's not going too bad so far.. ]

I'm not sure if mom's gonna like that a whole lot though. She'd probably yell I'm some bum like dad!

[MAY.....BE........ she has faith in Josuke okok he'll be fine... Probably.]

Haha, it sounds tough! [a beat] But now I'm kinda curious. Could you tell me more about your mom, actually?

[About a person she'll never actually be able to meet. But it'd be kind of nice to at least imagine it, right? After ten years of being on her own and most her friends back home either being the same or otherwise estranged from their parents, it's nice to just hear about a good parent in general.]

[ .. Huh. He didn't really expect to hear that question, but.. he sort of gets the sentiment behind it. He does know Minako doesn't really have a family life the way he does, after all, and he also very well knows that Minako isn't going to make it home with him ever to see his mother.

But despite the heavy feeling it gives him, he grins, drops the tent stuff he was working on halfway through and instead saunters over Minako, draping an arm over her shoulder and moving with her until they're sitting down on the ground next to each other, practically huddling together with his arm like that.

For once he doesn't really care if all the stupid sand is getting all over his designer pants. ]

You sure you wanna hear? She's pretty scary.

[Easily leaning into Josuke's hold, she can't help but smile when she feels more than hears his voice, the sound reverberating through his chest. She wants to stay as close as possible to him for as long as she can, and she knows that won't be for that long.]

Anything at all, really. But she must be pretty scary if even you're saying that. Why don't we start there? [She'd listen to anything and everything about Josuke's life back home to be honest, but there's something heartwarming in learning about the person who raised him.]

Well, she's just.. [ .. he pauses for a moment as he thinks. Man, it's already felt like a really, really long time since he last saw his mother. Half of the time he finds himself so occupied with Minako and her condition that he doesn't even realise just how homesick he is, huh? But he doesn't linger too long on the thought, instead continuing. ]

.. she's pretty great. I mean, yeah, she's scary as hell, but it's just since she can be really strict sometimes, y'know? I guess she had to be since she raised me all by herself 'cause dad ran off after getting her pregnant.

Yeah, I can only imagine how hard that would be on your own. [She places her hand on top of Josuke's, absentmindedly tracing random patterns as she talks.] I have to say though, she did a pretty damn good job raising you! I almost wish I could thank her for it.

[ He laughs. ]

I dunno if she'd agree with you. [ She probably would and Josuke knows it too, but he can't help but joke about it a little. She did complain a lot about his late night gaming.. ] I mean, it's not like we become who we are just 'cause of our parents, y'know? Everyone we meet has some kinda influence on us.

[ .. for a moment he gets more quiet and then stares at her. ]

Like you on me.

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ic; i don't even dare to post this self indulgent shit into buttshipping help

crying 5x and i haven't even written anything yet

my life right here

all day errday my god i want to die already

you can't die yet i need you for the rest of this thread....

idk you just said you were done with ships in the buttchat

THAT WAS MY SHADOW

BUT THAT MEANS THAT WHAT YOU SAID WAS TRUE ANYWAYS JUST IN A REALLY DEPRESSING WAY

i just want to break out of my masochistic ways but i can't :(

:'( it's an endless cycle

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