[ Everything about his prince is perfect. In this moment Haruki is only reminded of it once more. Not that he ever doubted that statement - even before he ever got this physically close to Noah, Haruki always admired the prince. He was gentle and kind, but he got done what he had to do, and he had no doubt that Noah would make a great leader of the entire country once he would inherit the crown from his father. He could only imagine what kind of great country Noah could shape if he was in full control of everything.
But this moment makes it more clear on a more personal level. Every gesture is so kind, every tough feels so gentle. It's like Noah constantly is thinking of other people and knows exactly how to treat someone as well as possible, how to make someone feel like they're on top of the world - because that's what he's doing for Haruki right now. Haruki who was always just a poor kid, who wasn't anything special.. and yet Noah is being so gentle with him like he's unique, precious, like he means something.
His heart is pounding so fast in his chest even before the prince's lips touch his own, but it might even pound a little faster once they do kiss, if that's even at all possible anymore with how quickly it's already going. All of this just feels so.. so overwhelming. Noah kissing him so gently, affectionately, despite it just being a prize for a competition. Noah, the person he admired for so much, the prince he wants to protect more than anything, and.. the person he likes, even if he's not meant to.
It's so overwhelming that Haruki almost instinctively cries, but he manages to hold it in. Barely, but he does manage it - he can't cry in front of this crowd, after all, not when he's supposed to be the prince's personal knight. If people thought he looked weak, they might take it as a sign they could try to hurt Noah since Haruki would be unable to stop it anyway.. and that's just about the last thing he wants.
Instead he just wills himself the best he can to keep standing on both feet, to bear all the feelings rushing through his body for now. He can collapse later, maybe when he's alone, and touch his lips as if the kiss felt unreal.
Later, but not now. Right now he doesn't even dare to back off out of the kiss, even when he feels himself slowly running out of breath with how worked up he is over all this. Noah is the prince, so Noah should decide when this ends. Haruki's role is to follow his every command, after all, even though they're technically here today as the victor and prize rather than the knight and the prince.
(Even so, his cheeks are a deep shade of pink that he can't seem to force down.) ]
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But this moment makes it more clear on a more personal level. Every gesture is so kind, every tough feels so gentle. It's like Noah constantly is thinking of other people and knows exactly how to treat someone as well as possible, how to make someone feel like they're on top of the world - because that's what he's doing for Haruki right now. Haruki who was always just a poor kid, who wasn't anything special.. and yet Noah is being so gentle with him like he's unique, precious, like he means something.
His heart is pounding so fast in his chest even before the prince's lips touch his own, but it might even pound a little faster once they do kiss, if that's even at all possible anymore with how quickly it's already going. All of this just feels so.. so overwhelming. Noah kissing him so gently, affectionately, despite it just being a prize for a competition. Noah, the person he admired for so much, the prince he wants to protect more than anything, and.. the person he likes, even if he's not meant to.
It's so overwhelming that Haruki almost instinctively cries, but he manages to hold it in. Barely, but he does manage it - he can't cry in front of this crowd, after all, not when he's supposed to be the prince's personal knight. If people thought he looked weak, they might take it as a sign they could try to hurt Noah since Haruki would be unable to stop it anyway.. and that's just about the last thing he wants.
Instead he just wills himself the best he can to keep standing on both feet, to bear all the feelings rushing through his body for now. He can collapse later, maybe when he's alone, and touch his lips as if the kiss felt unreal.
Later, but not now. Right now he doesn't even dare to back off out of the kiss, even when he feels himself slowly running out of breath with how worked up he is over all this. Noah is the prince, so Noah should decide when this ends. Haruki's role is to follow his every command, after all, even though they're technically here today as the victor and prize rather than the knight and the prince.
(Even so, his cheeks are a deep shade of pink that he can't seem to force down.) ]