[ It doesn't feel bad to Minhwan. It doesn't even feel weird. Even though any normal person would realise that no one would ever worry whether the person they're in a relationship with would care or not if something bad would happen to them, it's not normal to Minhwan.. he's not used to it, after all. The weird warm feeling Sejoon gives him in his chest is something entirely new, and things like love, relationships.. they're things Minhwan has heard of, sure, but he's never experienced it for himself until now. He doesn't even know if he'd worry if something would happen to Sejoon, it's just something he's never even thought about since it never came up - nothing ever happened to Sejoon.
Would their positions be reversed if Sejoon got injured? Probably, he wouldn't want to let Sejoon keep lying there, and it's not like he'd rather be in class instead of at Sejoon's side where he can easily harass the other.. but would he worry this badly? Would he also experience this much care for once? He isn't sure at all.. it's just something he can't even imagine.
But apparently it's a natural thing. It must be a natural thing when Sejoon acts like it is - Minhwan is at least not blind to the fact that Sejoon is much more emotionally and socially gifted than Minhwan could ever be, for better or worse. ]
You worried so much.
[ That's one conclusion he can at least draw from all of this. As weird as it is.. why would Sejoon worry that much, after all? About him, of all people? Even if they're dating, it's not like their relationship is exactly a normal one, and Minhwan has just been treating it lightly as he treats everything in life..
Sejoon worried about him. Why does that thought make him feel so weird?
Once Sejoon removes his lips from Minhwan's hand, he stretches out the fingers of that hand, idly touching Sejoon's lips - almost as if he needs something to occupy himself with while he's trying to think and process all of this. For as much of a genius as Minhwan is, all of this is really, really complicated. ]
I've never felt like that. [ Mostly since there never was a reason to worry about anything. Even if Jaejin or Minji had any sort of problems, they always hid them around Minhwan - and he's oblivious enough to other people's trouble that he just doesn't notice. Why worry about anything when everything is going well enough in life?
But he's slowly realising that now. He never had any reason to worry, so if there was one.. would he feel it then? Is that how that sort of emotion is supposed to work? ]
If this had happened to you..
[ To Sejoon, who.. well, Minhwan sure doesn't dislike. He doesn't have any of the annoyed feelings Sejoon has for him in return, he just thinks Sejoon is amusing. Sejoon who easily gets riled up, who goes along with his every whim even if he can complain about it the whole way, who's been interesting enough that Minhwan entered this sort of relationship with him to begin with.. ]
.. would I feel it too then? [ His fingers trace the outlines of Sejoon's lips idly, his voice a little light - like he's talking to himself more than anything, even if the words come out of his mouth all the same. ] Would I be that worried..
[ It seems like a weird idea to him. Minhwan can't even start to imagine what it feels like, honestly. It's why he doesn't sound upset about it, there's nothing sad. It's just curiosity, trying to graps something that's way beyond his own emotional levels. ]
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Would their positions be reversed if Sejoon got injured? Probably, he wouldn't want to let Sejoon keep lying there, and it's not like he'd rather be in class instead of at Sejoon's side where he can easily harass the other.. but would he worry this badly? Would he also experience this much care for once? He isn't sure at all.. it's just something he can't even imagine.
But apparently it's a natural thing. It must be a natural thing when Sejoon acts like it is - Minhwan is at least not blind to the fact that Sejoon is much more emotionally and socially gifted than Minhwan could ever be, for better or worse. ]
You worried so much.
[ That's one conclusion he can at least draw from all of this. As weird as it is.. why would Sejoon worry that much, after all? About him, of all people? Even if they're dating, it's not like their relationship is exactly a normal one, and Minhwan has just been treating it lightly as he treats everything in life..
Sejoon worried about him. Why does that thought make him feel so weird?
Once Sejoon removes his lips from Minhwan's hand, he stretches out the fingers of that hand, idly touching Sejoon's lips - almost as if he needs something to occupy himself with while he's trying to think and process all of this. For as much of a genius as Minhwan is, all of this is really, really complicated. ]
I've never felt like that. [ Mostly since there never was a reason to worry about anything. Even if Jaejin or Minji had any sort of problems, they always hid them around Minhwan - and he's oblivious enough to other people's trouble that he just doesn't notice. Why worry about anything when everything is going well enough in life?
But he's slowly realising that now. He never had any reason to worry, so if there was one.. would he feel it then? Is that how that sort of emotion is supposed to work? ]
If this had happened to you..
[ To Sejoon, who.. well, Minhwan sure doesn't dislike. He doesn't have any of the annoyed feelings Sejoon has for him in return, he just thinks Sejoon is amusing. Sejoon who easily gets riled up, who goes along with his every whim even if he can complain about it the whole way, who's been interesting enough that Minhwan entered this sort of relationship with him to begin with.. ]
.. would I feel it too then? [ His fingers trace the outlines of Sejoon's lips idly, his voice a little light - like he's talking to himself more than anything, even if the words come out of his mouth all the same. ] Would I be that worried..
[ It seems like a weird idea to him. Minhwan can't even start to imagine what it feels like, honestly. It's why he doesn't sound upset about it, there's nothing sad. It's just curiosity, trying to graps something that's way beyond his own emotional levels. ]