[Honestly...hearing Minhwan asking him that question worries him almost as much as the thought of this actually happening again. His heart starts beating a little faster in his chest- trying to imagine what it must be like to wonder if your own lover would care or not if you got injured. And no matter what Minhwan's attitude on the subject is...the thought still makes him feel lonely.
Even when the words are out there, Sejoon finds himself instinctively pulling the other boy closer to himself- inching his arms a little further around him. It's not like Minhwan needs any protection right now. He's definitely safe from any falls in here...It's probably more because of the question itself instead. No matter how they regularly act together, he doesn't want things to continue at this level. He wants to make it clear that, no matter what, Sejoon would worry- would care if Minhwan got hurt.
For once, he's starting to feel more comfortable about being open with Minhwan...about being direct about what's on his mind. It's not without any difficulty at all...because it still makes him feel vulnerable, in a sense. It's hard to drop a feeling like that entirely. But even more strongly than that, Sejoon's sure he needs to try something here- to make Minhwan understand that he's being honest.
When he talks again, his voice sounds quiet...almost like he's hurt at the very thought of it.]
Of course...of course I would.
[His hand doesn't stop moving through Minhwan's hair- continuing with the gentle back and forth motions. It seems like the other finds it comforting, at least...so he'll keep doing it. But his movements still seem more careful now, even moreso than before...like he's holding something delicate.]
I don't...want you to think that I wouldn't...I never want you to feel that way...
[Sejoon's free hand reaches to take one of Minhwan's- holding it in a grip that's just as tender as the other- and he tugs it carefully over towards his mouth. Closing his eyes, he presses a soft kiss to the back of the other boys' hand.]
I really wasn't sure if you'd come back...
[Meaning...wake up again. He'd said as much earlier, but it could've just as easily sounded like teasing. This time, there won't be any room for misinterpretation.]
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Even when the words are out there, Sejoon finds himself instinctively pulling the other boy closer to himself- inching his arms a little further around him. It's not like Minhwan needs any protection right now. He's definitely safe from any falls in here...It's probably more because of the question itself instead. No matter how they regularly act together, he doesn't want things to continue at this level. He wants to make it clear that, no matter what, Sejoon would worry- would care if Minhwan got hurt.
For once, he's starting to feel more comfortable about being open with Minhwan...about being direct about what's on his mind. It's not without any difficulty at all...because it still makes him feel vulnerable, in a sense. It's hard to drop a feeling like that entirely. But even more strongly than that, Sejoon's sure he needs to try something here- to make Minhwan understand that he's being honest.
When he talks again, his voice sounds quiet...almost like he's hurt at the very thought of it.]
Of course...of course I would.
[His hand doesn't stop moving through Minhwan's hair- continuing with the gentle back and forth motions. It seems like the other finds it comforting, at least...so he'll keep doing it. But his movements still seem more careful now, even moreso than before...like he's holding something delicate.]
I don't...want you to think that I wouldn't...I never want you to feel that way...
[Sejoon's free hand reaches to take one of Minhwan's- holding it in a grip that's just as tender as the other- and he tugs it carefully over towards his mouth. Closing his eyes, he presses a soft kiss to the back of the other boys' hand.]
I really wasn't sure if you'd come back...
[Meaning...wake up again. He'd said as much earlier, but it could've just as easily sounded like teasing. This time, there won't be any room for misinterpretation.]