[Sejoon never thought he'd be soft and warm with Minhwan without getting made fun of, at the very least. Isn't it weird...that up until now, he never thought he'd have a reason to act like this with his own boyfriend? Maybe it's because Minhwan never seems vulnerable at all...he's never ashamed, and he's never really upset. The word "strong" probably isn't right, but Sejoon's never imagined any weaker side to him before today.
And really...that was just stupid of him. He realizes it now. Minhwan is still human, no matter how big his ego is, and no matter how weird he is. Sejoon knows he'd take getting pissed off and riled up every single day, if it meant Minhwan didn't have to go through something like that again- he'd gladly take it. As much as there're things about the other boy that really do get to him...he couldn't even imagine losing that. The thought makes his chest tighten up into hard knots and he opens his eyes again.
Maybe Sejoon didn't really come close to losing him today...but the scare was more than enough to get him thinking. And it was more than enough to realize that it's a very real fear somewhere inside of him. It's weird to think of, considering the way they usually spend time together...but he really does want Minhwan in his life. So this soft moment...it definitely isn't bad. Not at all.
The comment makes him smile, but his hand doesn't miss a beat- continuing with gentle back and forth motions along Minhwan's face.]
You think I'm weird?
[His voice is actually pretty affectionate when he says that, so it'll be obvious he's not trying to be harsh.]
It's alright. For now...just as long as you know I'm here to stay, that's enough.
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And really...that was just stupid of him. He realizes it now. Minhwan is still human, no matter how big his ego is, and no matter how weird he is. Sejoon knows he'd take getting pissed off and riled up every single day, if it meant Minhwan didn't have to go through something like that again- he'd gladly take it. As much as there're things about the other boy that really do get to him...he couldn't even imagine losing that. The thought makes his chest tighten up into hard knots and he opens his eyes again.
Maybe Sejoon didn't really come close to losing him today...but the scare was more than enough to get him thinking. And it was more than enough to realize that it's a very real fear somewhere inside of him. It's weird to think of, considering the way they usually spend time together...but he really does want Minhwan in his life. So this soft moment...it definitely isn't bad. Not at all.
The comment makes him smile, but his hand doesn't miss a beat- continuing with gentle back and forth motions along Minhwan's face.]
You think I'm weird?
[His voice is actually pretty affectionate when he says that, so it'll be obvious he's not trying to be harsh.]
It's alright. For now...just as long as you know I'm here to stay, that's enough.